I don't know..
Ever since my maw maw died I feel even more alone. My dad is never here, but I'm used to that. Now my mom is not here even more than when my maw maw was sick. And even when she is here, it feels like she is in another world. She cries so much so it's hard for me to be around her. I wish Kevin was there for me like he used to be. I honestly think he sees me as a burden, like someone he wishes he could get rid of for good. I feel like I'm messing up his life.All I've ever wanted to do was make him happy, but how can I make him happy when I can't even make myself happy? It's not like he cares any way. Last Saturday was such a mistake. I wish it didn't feel so right and so good. I wish he would have never spent that much time with me. He always takes everything back. He just can't seem to like me anymore. What's wrong with me? I just can't seem to stop liking him even when he does this to me. I wish he would just make up his mind. I'm just so scared that he's not going to be in our child's life. I'm scared that everyone is right that he's just going to walk away. I want to believe he's going to be there... Everything is just so wrong.