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I'm done. I'm done. I'm done.
I need to tell LJ land this, and I need them to listen.
Please.
I'm out of control.
This weekend I made a mess of myself in so many ways. I cannot even begin to explain why or how I ended up this way.
This weekend I partied, hard, like an addict.
Friday:
3 hits of Ecstacy.
2 hits for two friends.
0 hours of sleep.
45 dollars spent on drugs and cover for Club AM.
Saturday:
3 hits of Ecstacy at first,
5 caps all together.
1 line of cocaine (for the second time)
0 hours of sleep
35 dollars on drugs, cover was free.
Sunday:
2 hits of ecstacy before 12 PM
0 hours of sleep
20 dollars on drugs.
Sunday night:
sleep deprovation kicks in and though I don't rememver most of it, I know I was
"sober".
I was told I was talking to myself and other things that can't talk back.
Finally slept at 6 AM.
I woke up monday with my legs up the wall.
Monday:
nothing illegal or stupid.
No, it is tuesday and my head is still spinning.
I honestly miss Alchohol
What I need:
A distraction. I need my friends to be back in the city, as soon as possible. I want to see them, actually enjoy my summer.
I havent done anything "summery" yet. No beach, no driving, I think the most I've done is hang out with a few friends (which I appriciate more then you know)
help, help, help, Help.
I need to tell LJ land this, and I need them to listen.
Please.
I'm out of control.
This weekend I made a mess of myself in so many ways. I cannot even begin to explain why or how I ended up this way.
This weekend I partied, hard, like an addict.
Friday:
3 hits of Ecstacy.
2 hits for two friends.
0 hours of sleep.
45 dollars spent on drugs and cover for Club AM.
Saturday:
3 hits of Ecstacy at first,
5 caps all together.
1 line of cocaine (for the second time)
0 hours of sleep
35 dollars on drugs, cover was free.
Sunday:
2 hits of ecstacy before 12 PM
0 hours of sleep
20 dollars on drugs.
Sunday night:
sleep deprovation kicks in and though I don't rememver most of it, I know I was
"sober".
I was told I was talking to myself and other things that can't talk back.
Finally slept at 6 AM.
I woke up monday with my legs up the wall.
Monday:
nothing illegal or stupid.
No, it is tuesday and my head is still spinning.
I honestly miss Alchohol
What I need:
A distraction. I need my friends to be back in the city, as soon as possible. I want to see them, actually enjoy my summer.
I havent done anything "summery" yet. No beach, no driving, I think the most I've done is hang out with a few friends (which I appriciate more then you know)
help, help, help, Help.