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dear you:
i want to tell you that you drive me crazy. at one point i would have done anything to reassure you that i care about you and i dont want to see harm come your way. but that was a long time ago. that was before you lied to me again, before you decieved me and before you decided to try and hurt me again. did you really think it would work? i have to give you props... it almost did... i was almost convinced... but i am stronger than i used to be. i am also smarter than i used to be. if you would have tried your bullshit in the past i would have fallen for it. but the past is long dead. and all my memories *the good and bad* are locked up so that they can no longer affect me. i want to go on pretending that i dont care if you exist or not, that i am unaffected by your actions and that you really dont matter to me at all. but you do. i wanted to be your friend. i cant be that now... you destroyed any chance of us having a real friendship.i want to say i am sorry that this happened...but i am not sure i am sorry. in fact i am not sure of much of anything at all. hopefully whatever you decide to do with your life will work out for the best for you in the end and not interfere with my plans for my life. do i ever want to see you again? i dont know. i dont want you to die... but fading away and restarting somewhere else would be a nice idea for you. you pretty much screwed yourself over with your latest slew of lies. i dont understand you and i dont think i ever will. what were you trying to accomplish? i may never know... but in your quest to achieve all your dreams possible you have lost several people who really cared about you. i have convinced myself it is not my loss, but yours alone. may you enjoy your life in the future... and hopefully you will learn from these mistakes.
Thinking of You
-Krysta
i want to tell you that you drive me crazy. at one point i would have done anything to reassure you that i care about you and i dont want to see harm come your way. but that was a long time ago. that was before you lied to me again, before you decieved me and before you decided to try and hurt me again. did you really think it would work? i have to give you props... it almost did... i was almost convinced... but i am stronger than i used to be. i am also smarter than i used to be. if you would have tried your bullshit in the past i would have fallen for it. but the past is long dead. and all my memories *the good and bad* are locked up so that they can no longer affect me. i want to go on pretending that i dont care if you exist or not, that i am unaffected by your actions and that you really dont matter to me at all. but you do. i wanted to be your friend. i cant be that now... you destroyed any chance of us having a real friendship.i want to say i am sorry that this happened...but i am not sure i am sorry. in fact i am not sure of much of anything at all. hopefully whatever you decide to do with your life will work out for the best for you in the end and not interfere with my plans for my life. do i ever want to see you again? i dont know. i dont want you to die... but fading away and restarting somewhere else would be a nice idea for you. you pretty much screwed yourself over with your latest slew of lies. i dont understand you and i dont think i ever will. what were you trying to accomplish? i may never know... but in your quest to achieve all your dreams possible you have lost several people who really cared about you. i have convinced myself it is not my loss, but yours alone. may you enjoy your life in the future... and hopefully you will learn from these mistakes.
Thinking of You
-Krysta