This is my two hundred forty-first entry.
Yesterday was mine and Jenn's six month anniversary. It was interesting, to say the least. Lots of hot sex, lots of TV watching, and lots of intense stuffs.
So, six months. That's pretty impressive, if I do say so myself. Jenn and I love each other very much, and this is a good thing. I think that we have a good future ahead of us.
In TV news, Boondocks ended its first season. 15 episodes long, and each one was a thing of sheer brilliance. Word on CBR is that Cartoon Network renewed them for a 20 episode second season. Holla. Nigga what!
We finally got caught up on Arrested Development. An excellent ending to an excellent show. My one complaint is that they did seem to rush things a bit in the end, but this was understandable, as their episode numbers kept getting cut. Annyong being the mole? Genius. Gob and Ann? Creepy. Lindsay being adopted? Jenn called it. I think they wrapped everything up rather nicely though. If they don't really get picked up by Showtime, then it will suck because the show isn't on anymore, but I will still be satisfied with its run. "Look at banner, Michael!" Look at banner, indeed.
So, intense stuffs. I don't really want to go into the details of it, but things basically boil down to the fact that Jenn betrayed my trust. And it hurts. From both a relationship level and a personal philosophy level. On the personal philosophy level, because I choose to believe that people are decent. I get proven wrong a lot, but I still maintain my stance. On the relationship level, because I would think that at the six month point in a relationship, that some modicum of trust has been established. And if one person doesn't want to dredge up things from the past, then their partner should respect that. She proved me wrong on both of these, and it hurts.
However, and this is the key thing here, I love her. I care for her more deeply than anyone else in my life. And I know that she loves me. She says it all the time, that I'm the best relationship she's ever been in. Both in my sheer awesomeness and level of sexual prowess, I rock. And she loves that. Unfortunately, she has a bit of a self-defeating attitude, and thus seeks sabotage where there is success. Hence, the snooping.
So, yeah. She fucked up. She knows that. But, as I said, I love her. And I forgive her. No one is perfect. I've fucked up pretty severely as well in the past. And we've gotten past it. Or at least, supposedly. So we can get past this as well.
Jenn has also expressed interest in taking a break for a little bit so that she can figure things out by herself. If that is what she needs, then that is what she needs. I will wait for her. As I said, I love her. And that is all that matters.
So, six months. That's pretty impressive, if I do say so myself. Jenn and I love each other very much, and this is a good thing. I think that we have a good future ahead of us.
In TV news, Boondocks ended its first season. 15 episodes long, and each one was a thing of sheer brilliance. Word on CBR is that Cartoon Network renewed them for a 20 episode second season. Holla. Nigga what!
We finally got caught up on Arrested Development. An excellent ending to an excellent show. My one complaint is that they did seem to rush things a bit in the end, but this was understandable, as their episode numbers kept getting cut. Annyong being the mole? Genius. Gob and Ann? Creepy. Lindsay being adopted? Jenn called it. I think they wrapped everything up rather nicely though. If they don't really get picked up by Showtime, then it will suck because the show isn't on anymore, but I will still be satisfied with its run. "Look at banner, Michael!" Look at banner, indeed.
So, intense stuffs. I don't really want to go into the details of it, but things basically boil down to the fact that Jenn betrayed my trust. And it hurts. From both a relationship level and a personal philosophy level. On the personal philosophy level, because I choose to believe that people are decent. I get proven wrong a lot, but I still maintain my stance. On the relationship level, because I would think that at the six month point in a relationship, that some modicum of trust has been established. And if one person doesn't want to dredge up things from the past, then their partner should respect that. She proved me wrong on both of these, and it hurts.
However, and this is the key thing here, I love her. I care for her more deeply than anyone else in my life. And I know that she loves me. She says it all the time, that I'm the best relationship she's ever been in. Both in my sheer awesomeness and level of sexual prowess, I rock. And she loves that. Unfortunately, she has a bit of a self-defeating attitude, and thus seeks sabotage where there is success. Hence, the snooping.
So, yeah. She fucked up. She knows that. But, as I said, I love her. And I forgive her. No one is perfect. I've fucked up pretty severely as well in the past. And we've gotten past it. Or at least, supposedly. So we can get past this as well.
Jenn has also expressed interest in taking a break for a little bit so that she can figure things out by herself. If that is what she needs, then that is what she needs. I will wait for her. As I said, I love her. And that is all that matters.