it's monday.
oh break.
there have been so many ups and downs to this break. and i cant believe so much (and so little) has happened so far.
i say this because so many things are happening, but just not to me.
my sister is about to go into labor any minute, which is so exciting!
no one knows what its going to be, which is what i think i wanna do.
its old fashion but i like the mystery of it.
im so ready to be an uncle! also, this baby is sorta my grad gift. haha i told my sister i wanted her to be pregnant when i graduate. haha. well, she didnt plan it that way for me. haha but its still neat.
hmmmm
also lately i have felt really out of touch with my creative energy.
i think when i get my drawing tablet (fingers crossed) i wil have something to focus on.
im getting tired of just 'playing' around with photoshop with lackluster pictures.
i feel like they arent even good. i feel like i lost something. i have no drive really anymore.
i want someone to just give me a project and then i could work off that. i am no good at just thinking up things to do on my own... and i bet you are thinking, "great a graphic designer with no imagination..he will go far"
ugh. well i think i just need to do more advertising to my photos and art and work my ass off in the next 3.5 years so i can go somewhere in life.
i wanna be big. i think it would so awesome to be a designer for musicians cd cover artwork or be a designer for rolling stone magazine or something to that effect. that's my big dream. or website making.
ha! i just dont know completely what i want yet. but i want art in my life and career.
speaking of jobs, dunkin has been giving me lots of hours which is good. i need to make that money back up ASAP! anbd i found 106 bucks in my paypal account :D
i just want to get my bank account back up
get my grades to all A's and B's for next semester
i want to get a definitive style and mood to my artwork and appearance
i want to be better than the version of myself. right now.
also, i want a girlfriend. or just someone to care for. i dont even care what sex they are. i am bi after all.
i want what a person i can cuddle with and spend time with. im so sick of being single. hmmm.
i guess i want things that my parents cant get me for christmas.
which is good, i suppose.
because i dont want to be some materialistic bastard like phil.
i want to be independent and be proud of everything i have.
blaaaaaaaaaht
want want want
what a great post, michael.
what a weird rant.
there have been so many ups and downs to this break. and i cant believe so much (and so little) has happened so far.
i say this because so many things are happening, but just not to me.
my sister is about to go into labor any minute, which is so exciting!
no one knows what its going to be, which is what i think i wanna do.
its old fashion but i like the mystery of it.
im so ready to be an uncle! also, this baby is sorta my grad gift. haha i told my sister i wanted her to be pregnant when i graduate. haha. well, she didnt plan it that way for me. haha but its still neat.
hmmmm
also lately i have felt really out of touch with my creative energy.
i think when i get my drawing tablet (fingers crossed) i wil have something to focus on.
im getting tired of just 'playing' around with photoshop with lackluster pictures.
i feel like they arent even good. i feel like i lost something. i have no drive really anymore.
i want someone to just give me a project and then i could work off that. i am no good at just thinking up things to do on my own... and i bet you are thinking, "great a graphic designer with no imagination..he will go far"
ugh. well i think i just need to do more advertising to my photos and art and work my ass off in the next 3.5 years so i can go somewhere in life.
i wanna be big. i think it would so awesome to be a designer for musicians cd cover artwork or be a designer for rolling stone magazine or something to that effect. that's my big dream. or website making.
ha! i just dont know completely what i want yet. but i want art in my life and career.
speaking of jobs, dunkin has been giving me lots of hours which is good. i need to make that money back up ASAP! anbd i found 106 bucks in my paypal account :D
i just want to get my bank account back up
get my grades to all A's and B's for next semester
i want to get a definitive style and mood to my artwork and appearance
i want to be better than the version of myself. right now.
also, i want a girlfriend. or just someone to care for. i dont even care what sex they are. i am bi after all.
i want what a person i can cuddle with and spend time with. im so sick of being single. hmmm.
i guess i want things that my parents cant get me for christmas.
which is good, i suppose.
because i dont want to be some materialistic bastard like phil.
i want to be independent and be proud of everything i have.
blaaaaaaaaaht
want want want
what a great post, michael.
what a weird rant.