My most EMO entry.
When all that we need is just a reaction
It's too much to ask for when there's no attraction anymore
I don't have anyone to talk to. I used to be able to talk to Jason about almost anything, but he seems not to care about anything other than Jeffrey. So I guess I'll just post and see how many people actually care.
I want to get out of here so bad
This Hell hole
This place I'm supposed to call "home"
All my parents ever do is argue
Argue about anything and everything
My dad is a gambling addict
And now my mom
They both are Speed addicts, as well.
What am I supposed to do?
I'm 15, I can't get a job.
I have 1 C 1 B 1 D and an F.
I miss my Mountain View friends
Hardly any of them talk to me anymore.
Like Nicolette and Sarah... I miss them so fucking much.
I haven't seen Mike, David, Victoria, Ashlee, Tim, Eric, Mateo, joey, Karyn, Casey, Jesse, JennaRose, Kevin, Ryan, Baker in so fucking long.
Maybe it was a bad choice to change schools.
Maybe this is what's making me like this?
Not beng around people.
Not having attention like I was used to.
I want to help out so bad around mu house.
I fake a smile everyday and pretend it's all okay
It's really not.
Holly can care less about this family too.
All she cares about is going to her friends house and taking the car.
I try to help Shelby with her homework, she is just a bitch to me and doesnt want me to when I know she is struggling.
Right now I have 58 dollars. How far will that get me?
All my mom does is sleep and eat, she doesn't bother cleaning this piece of shit house.
I need out. Out of my house. Out of Mesa. Out of Arizona. Alone.
I really think I'd be happier if I had no one.
I wouldn't have to worry about other people.
I act like I don't care about anything, but I really do care about EVERYTHING.
I need someone to care about me as much as I care about them, is this possible?
I'm sorry for being all "EMO" and depressed. But it's how I feel, i can care less if you think this entry is stupid. Isn't that what a journal is for? To express your emotions? Well, there you go.
It's too much to ask for when there's no attraction anymore
I don't have anyone to talk to. I used to be able to talk to Jason about almost anything, but he seems not to care about anything other than Jeffrey. So I guess I'll just post and see how many people actually care.
I want to get out of here so bad
This Hell hole
This place I'm supposed to call "home"
All my parents ever do is argue
Argue about anything and everything
My dad is a gambling addict
And now my mom
They both are Speed addicts, as well.
What am I supposed to do?
I'm 15, I can't get a job.
I have 1 C 1 B 1 D and an F.
I miss my Mountain View friends
Hardly any of them talk to me anymore.
Like Nicolette and Sarah... I miss them so fucking much.
I haven't seen Mike, David, Victoria, Ashlee, Tim, Eric, Mateo, joey, Karyn, Casey, Jesse, JennaRose, Kevin, Ryan, Baker in so fucking long.
Maybe it was a bad choice to change schools.
Maybe this is what's making me like this?
Not beng around people.
Not having attention like I was used to.
I want to help out so bad around mu house.
I fake a smile everyday and pretend it's all okay
It's really not.
Holly can care less about this family too.
All she cares about is going to her friends house and taking the car.
I try to help Shelby with her homework, she is just a bitch to me and doesnt want me to when I know she is struggling.
Right now I have 58 dollars. How far will that get me?
All my mom does is sleep and eat, she doesn't bother cleaning this piece of shit house.
I need out. Out of my house. Out of Mesa. Out of Arizona. Alone.
I really think I'd be happier if I had no one.
I wouldn't have to worry about other people.
I act like I don't care about anything, but I really do care about EVERYTHING.
I need someone to care about me as much as I care about them, is this possible?
I'm sorry for being all "EMO" and depressed. But it's how I feel, i can care less if you think this entry is stupid. Isn't that what a journal is for? To express your emotions? Well, there you go.