nothing ever matters
I don't know to do anymore. Only thing good right now is school. In fact, that is the only thing I care about right now. For now, work sucks. No one does shit, but me even though I take the blame for all the shit that goes wrong. It's not like I care. I don't really care about anything anymore and it sucks. I got a ps3 which I thought I would be excited about, but yet again, it sucks. My friends are going down in numbers. I just can't get why people are the way they are. I guess I am just jealous of all the things people have that I don't, like good jobs and friends who are trustworthy and loyal. It seems that when I don't have money no one wants to hang out. Maybe I don't have ANY friends. I just need to hit a restart button on life and start it off differently. I wish I could just get away from this shithole world I live in for just a few days. It's really depressing and the saddest part is I don't think anything will change. I just need a few things: money, new friends who don't just use me for my money and resources, and a job where they respect me for what I do and what I sacrifice to work as ahard as I do. Life is a neverending shithole and I don't know if that will ever change. Hopefully a degree will make things happen and get me away from VB.