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Happy Easter everyone. God bless you all. =3
Shall you is have some happy days then please reading stop here. (woot! count the grammar errors!)
I've become quite short tempered lately and resulted in heaps of verbal bashing here and there ^^;; So I thought I should maybe do some self-isolation during the Easter break. But it turns out that now, I'M PISSING MYSELF OFF. >=[
So the story goes like this: I got bored and so things started popping up in my head. I realised that... My self-imaging isn't going too well and that I'm beginning to turn into one of "them" low-self-esteem people. Look, for 4 hours already, I've been telling myself:
- OMG. Look at your pale skin and all those tan-line peoblems. x.x YUCK. How could you ever imagine yourself in singlet tops ever again?
- EW! Look at your trumpet legs! How could you ever bare to be seen wearing miniskirts again?
- GROSS! Look at your chunky arms! How could you possibly wear a T-shirt again?
- Grrr! And those fat fat thighs. No guy is going to want to see you in pants again.
- *faint* And those chubby cheaks. Please don't tell me you're still going for the I'M SO CUTE image. AND PLEASE DON'T wear those high collar jumpers. XC
- And those hair? What's up with the highlights? Around 1.5 cm of Black hair has grown out already.
- Those fat toes. Thongs are just so NOT for you.
- Those bags you have x.x Just a waste of your perfect eyebrows coz those black patches ruin everything
- And that huge ass? No it's NOT sexy. It's not even firm.
- So you think you can bare the rest of your life in long dresses so everything is covered? NO. You're frikin' short and dresses make you even shorter looking.
SO WHAT. GREAT I HAVE NO CLOTHES TO WEAR FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.
Okay, for those who don't know me. I'm not THAT bad. But c'mon we're talking about a person who's 158cm and weighs 52KG. People often say: OH MY GOD. Do you want to be anorexic or something? You're fine! At least you're healthy! Don't worry! No one really checks other people out in the streets and then diss them about their weight!
You know, I'm really thankful that I have these sort of comforting friends, but... I don't know... to me, those are some figures that every girl should be ashamed of. I just think, the world is cruel. To me, there isn't such thing as "I like you for your personality" or "Looks don't matter at all" in our generation anymore. Maybe I'm wrong about everything. Many people still say that "If you think that, then you're the sad one". But you know, normally people who say that stuff are pretty ugly themselves. Whenever I hear that from them, I just take it as them hiding from the truth so that what remains of their low low self-esteem can't be taken away till there is none left.
Like c'mon HONESTLY. If there was a good looking guy and a total freak nerd skinny wimpy pale guy walking side by side in the street, who would you look at first? (Note: does not apply to people with odd taste XD) I guess a majority would be choosing the good-looking? So my point is, of course the personality matters, but how would you know in this case? It's never fair is it?
There's the other case where I just kinda freak my friends out by saying I MIGHT get plastic surgery when I reach 18 (I'm like 99% kidding) but as soon as I say that, I get FULLY bombarded with lectures bla bla bla. So I think: Plastic surgery is for enhancing the visual pleasures of one's appearance. If you guys think that's low, cheap, idiotic, then why do you I'M-SO-GOOD-I-DON'T-NEED-PLASTIC-SURGERY people still put on make up and so on? Isn't it the fucking same?
Anyway, I'm sensing that I've not made much sense in this entry because I keep on skipping onto new points and all the sentense structure is stuffed up XD But ye. That typing made me feel better. Oh well, I stil feel a bit low, so I'll just go and work out at the gym now. Cya =3
This entry was written by the "brand whore" (says Melissa), "materialistic" (says Rose), "snob" (says Hae Ran) girl.
Shall you is have some happy days then please reading stop here. (woot! count the grammar errors!)
I've become quite short tempered lately and resulted in heaps of verbal bashing here and there ^^;; So I thought I should maybe do some self-isolation during the Easter break. But it turns out that now, I'M PISSING MYSELF OFF. >=[
So the story goes like this: I got bored and so things started popping up in my head. I realised that... My self-imaging isn't going too well and that I'm beginning to turn into one of "them" low-self-esteem people. Look, for 4 hours already, I've been telling myself:
- OMG. Look at your pale skin and all those tan-line peoblems. x.x YUCK. How could you ever imagine yourself in singlet tops ever again?
- EW! Look at your trumpet legs! How could you ever bare to be seen wearing miniskirts again?
- GROSS! Look at your chunky arms! How could you possibly wear a T-shirt again?
- Grrr! And those fat fat thighs. No guy is going to want to see you in pants again.
- *faint* And those chubby cheaks. Please don't tell me you're still going for the I'M SO CUTE image. AND PLEASE DON'T wear those high collar jumpers. XC
- And those hair? What's up with the highlights? Around 1.5 cm of Black hair has grown out already.
- Those fat toes. Thongs are just so NOT for you.
- Those bags you have x.x Just a waste of your perfect eyebrows coz those black patches ruin everything
- And that huge ass? No it's NOT sexy. It's not even firm.
- So you think you can bare the rest of your life in long dresses so everything is covered? NO. You're frikin' short and dresses make you even shorter looking.
SO WHAT. GREAT I HAVE NO CLOTHES TO WEAR FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.
Okay, for those who don't know me. I'm not THAT bad. But c'mon we're talking about a person who's 158cm and weighs 52KG. People often say: OH MY GOD. Do you want to be anorexic or something? You're fine! At least you're healthy! Don't worry! No one really checks other people out in the streets and then diss them about their weight!
You know, I'm really thankful that I have these sort of comforting friends, but... I don't know... to me, those are some figures that every girl should be ashamed of. I just think, the world is cruel. To me, there isn't such thing as "I like you for your personality" or "Looks don't matter at all" in our generation anymore. Maybe I'm wrong about everything. Many people still say that "If you think that, then you're the sad one". But you know, normally people who say that stuff are pretty ugly themselves. Whenever I hear that from them, I just take it as them hiding from the truth so that what remains of their low low self-esteem can't be taken away till there is none left.
Like c'mon HONESTLY. If there was a good looking guy and a total freak nerd skinny wimpy pale guy walking side by side in the street, who would you look at first? (Note: does not apply to people with odd taste XD) I guess a majority would be choosing the good-looking? So my point is, of course the personality matters, but how would you know in this case? It's never fair is it?
There's the other case where I just kinda freak my friends out by saying I MIGHT get plastic surgery when I reach 18 (I'm like 99% kidding) but as soon as I say that, I get FULLY bombarded with lectures bla bla bla. So I think: Plastic surgery is for enhancing the visual pleasures of one's appearance. If you guys think that's low, cheap, idiotic, then why do you I'M-SO-GOOD-I-DON'T-NEED-PLASTIC-SURGERY people still put on make up and so on? Isn't it the fucking same?
Anyway, I'm sensing that I've not made much sense in this entry because I keep on skipping onto new points and all the sentense structure is stuffed up XD But ye. That typing made me feel better. Oh well, I stil feel a bit low, so I'll just go and work out at the gym now. Cya =3
This entry was written by the "brand whore" (says Melissa), "materialistic" (says Rose), "snob" (says Hae Ran) girl.