I was just a stupid kid back then...
Alright... here's where it ends. It's kinda started to weird me out how many people read this.. and people who know nothing about my life will start talking to me about stuff and I'm like how did you know that. Little did I know the religously read this thing... So I decided I would leave with a last word.
I just got back from Ohio, it was the first time I didn't want to come home. On the ride home I wanted to turn around and head back west. This town is disgusting and has taken way too much out of me. I thank God I have less than a year left here. Than I'm off to bigger and better things, with the one person I love. My life gets realer and realer everyday. And when I look back at my past I eighter smile or frown. But I regret nothing, of corse I wish this summer never happened... but I needed it to grow up, I needed it to show me that, that is exactly how I don't want to live my life. I apologize to anyone I hurt this summer, the truth is I wasn't the slightest bit myself this summer and I realized it when I was in Ohio, cause I was their during the summer. And I made myself sick to think that I tried so hard just to feel something anything this summer that I made myself a million times more numb than I ever wished. I met this kid over the summer and we'd hung out a lot. Then one day he told me it was the first time he had ever seen my sober... and I think of all the drunk drives home and all the phone calls. All the stupid shit I did and it makes me sick. But I'm who I am and I love the person I am.. I've just made some poor chooses.. we all do. And I am the one person who is filled with forgiveness and love, I gained that from my Mother.
Next year I hope to be miles from here with an amazing career, which is already on its way!
So this goes out to my friends in this town, I love you and I could never and would never replace you. You guys make this town parable... thanks kids.
<3 Mo
"forget everything you think you know about me"
I just got back from Ohio, it was the first time I didn't want to come home. On the ride home I wanted to turn around and head back west. This town is disgusting and has taken way too much out of me. I thank God I have less than a year left here. Than I'm off to bigger and better things, with the one person I love. My life gets realer and realer everyday. And when I look back at my past I eighter smile or frown. But I regret nothing, of corse I wish this summer never happened... but I needed it to grow up, I needed it to show me that, that is exactly how I don't want to live my life. I apologize to anyone I hurt this summer, the truth is I wasn't the slightest bit myself this summer and I realized it when I was in Ohio, cause I was their during the summer. And I made myself sick to think that I tried so hard just to feel something anything this summer that I made myself a million times more numb than I ever wished. I met this kid over the summer and we'd hung out a lot. Then one day he told me it was the first time he had ever seen my sober... and I think of all the drunk drives home and all the phone calls. All the stupid shit I did and it makes me sick. But I'm who I am and I love the person I am.. I've just made some poor chooses.. we all do. And I am the one person who is filled with forgiveness and love, I gained that from my Mother.
Next year I hope to be miles from here with an amazing career, which is already on its way!
So this goes out to my friends in this town, I love you and I could never and would never replace you. You guys make this town parable... thanks kids.
<3 Mo
"forget everything you think you know about me"