May 09, 2005 10:14
i have this problem of finding thigs.. or people whom i deem worthy, and a reputible person and just holding on to that. and when i see differntly(i.e. poor judgement on their part) than what i first saw in the person, i for some reason unbenounced to me.. care deeply. i cry over things that shouldnt bother me; and i tend to become attached to subtrates not stong enough to hold.
i think graduation will open my eyes and help me leave all of this behind me, help me realize more than what i see and and beable t focus more on whats ahead than behind.
im not saying i want to leave this place... because honestly i dont. i love change but i also (i cannot belive im saying this) love where i grew up.
from the people at great subs and more who know exactly when at want when i walk in the door to the guy at target that knows my name. from the kids i grew up with to the ones im going to befriend in college. from the Guy at American Eagle.. whom i swear is gay that picks out clothes with me to an old friend i worked with at Jeannies whos at Old Navy now.
all of this will some day a distant memory, and some already should be as of now. this year has been a rocky one with crazy ups and downs and i think i am finaly ready to let it all go.
the memories made here at mitchell highschool and on the street of NPR will be fond ones i will always cherish, and i regret nothing but i take with me the knowlege i gained from the expierience.
most of my friends are leaving and, god, will i miss you all. you are my comfort and learning to get along without you all will be just another notch in the growing up process.
i wish everyone best wishes and congradualtions on making it through 13 years of public schooling. the future holds so much for us all and if i had one wish that was undoubtably to be granted i would want all of you to touch the stars and suceed in everything you could possibly dream of.
i love all of you and i want to leave noone on a bad note.
goodluck and best wishes.
see ya all in 10 years... hopefully we wont all be beached whales
<3Shavonne