my story.
(This is not any attetion seeking entry. This is my own vent. My business... and if you read it. It was among your decision. In this time, i need to vent. i need to let everything out...)
Music to my ears? ...not exactly.. The news struck me. I didnt know how to feel. I couldnt cry. I didnt cry. How am i suppose to handle this? ...you were definitly another form of a parent to me.. you were my Godfather. Those days where you would take us all to the pool and we'd all swim together.. then the rollerskating and biking back to lola and lolo's apartment. or how about just those random walks.. where we'd always stop by at 7 eleven and you'd always get whatever we wanted. And of course.. the only reason we would go there was for the candy and slushies =) .. but you knew we also needed quiet time... you made sure that we would always get our nap. i also remember when we saw eachother.. my name wasnt even natasha, or even shasha.. it was ninong hehe that would make us laugh so hard! growing up with you was more than enough time. but, time ran out... and now i feel like i wish i spent so many more days with you. So many more hours, so many more minutes.. or even just a couple seconds. I didnt have time to thank you for everything you've done for me. I didnt have time to just show a little bit of appreciation. so here's my overdue thank you.. in hope that it'll someday get to you. You've endured so many struggles. At time you've even fallen...and needed help getting back up. Complications later on arrived and you fought a good battle... and no, i dont think you lost at all. i think you won. Cause now you're in a better place, ninong. No more pain, no more struggles, no more dealing with so many battles. You dont have to fight anymore. you'll always be in my heart. i love you SO much. Rest in Peace.
- ninong. (sha)
i just wish i knew...
how to save a life...
Music to my ears? ...not exactly.. The news struck me. I didnt know how to feel. I couldnt cry. I didnt cry. How am i suppose to handle this? ...you were definitly another form of a parent to me.. you were my Godfather. Those days where you would take us all to the pool and we'd all swim together.. then the rollerskating and biking back to lola and lolo's apartment. or how about just those random walks.. where we'd always stop by at 7 eleven and you'd always get whatever we wanted. And of course.. the only reason we would go there was for the candy and slushies =) .. but you knew we also needed quiet time... you made sure that we would always get our nap. i also remember when we saw eachother.. my name wasnt even natasha, or even shasha.. it was ninong hehe that would make us laugh so hard! growing up with you was more than enough time. but, time ran out... and now i feel like i wish i spent so many more days with you. So many more hours, so many more minutes.. or even just a couple seconds. I didnt have time to thank you for everything you've done for me. I didnt have time to just show a little bit of appreciation. so here's my overdue thank you.. in hope that it'll someday get to you. You've endured so many struggles. At time you've even fallen...and needed help getting back up. Complications later on arrived and you fought a good battle... and no, i dont think you lost at all. i think you won. Cause now you're in a better place, ninong. No more pain, no more struggles, no more dealing with so many battles. You dont have to fight anymore. you'll always be in my heart. i love you SO much. Rest in Peace.
- ninong. (sha)
i just wish i knew...
how to save a life...