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so this isn't going to work. i'm breaking up with this livejournal. i tried to before but never did it successfully.
it will always be here. i will never make it private or delete it. i just need to try something new. i am out of school (until summer at least). in the coming months i have a lot to do. i plan to pay off my $700 fine, lose some weight, donate plasma, find a job, and maybe even get a couple more tattoos.
things have been really weird since i went to the slammer, as anyone who actually reads this may remember. i don't know when i'll ever feel right about it. it hurts thinking about chris, and how much i love him. how i thought he loved me, but doesn't seem to need me now that he has a car. it's feelings like this that make this journal sad for me. from the time i started this thing i've, for some reason, tried to remember feelings like this.
i wouldn't say i've been sad constantly for entirety of this journal. i've always just found it easier to write when i'm reflective and i'm generally reflective when upset. so my bad i guess.
also, i'm not really into rooney anymore. i realized this the other day when i said aloud, for the first time ever, "i don't really think i like rooney anymore." sure their first album was good and fun (i still love it, honestly) and i wanted robert carmine and taylor locke to be my boyfriends. they remind me of being young. but i no longer want my public livejournal representing these sentiments.
the new journal, for any of you who wanna stick around:
caitlinruthless
i'll be adding some of you, so don't be surprised.
love,
caitlin
it will always be here. i will never make it private or delete it. i just need to try something new. i am out of school (until summer at least). in the coming months i have a lot to do. i plan to pay off my $700 fine, lose some weight, donate plasma, find a job, and maybe even get a couple more tattoos.
things have been really weird since i went to the slammer, as anyone who actually reads this may remember. i don't know when i'll ever feel right about it. it hurts thinking about chris, and how much i love him. how i thought he loved me, but doesn't seem to need me now that he has a car. it's feelings like this that make this journal sad for me. from the time i started this thing i've, for some reason, tried to remember feelings like this.
i wouldn't say i've been sad constantly for entirety of this journal. i've always just found it easier to write when i'm reflective and i'm generally reflective when upset. so my bad i guess.
also, i'm not really into rooney anymore. i realized this the other day when i said aloud, for the first time ever, "i don't really think i like rooney anymore." sure their first album was good and fun (i still love it, honestly) and i wanted robert carmine and taylor locke to be my boyfriends. they remind me of being young. but i no longer want my public livejournal representing these sentiments.
the new journal, for any of you who wanna stick around:
caitlinruthless
i'll be adding some of you, so don't be surprised.
love,
caitlin