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As of last night, Talking to him really helped me figure things out. Ive been so .. Blah lately its been insane. Start my second job in about a half hour. Tuesday im going down to the school to try and get a class or two started before I miss another semester. Im just in a place in in life where I need to figure myself out. And thats what im doing. Im sorry if Ive been ignoring you. Its just something I needed to do.
I had coffee with my Grandmother this morning. It was nice. I miss that lady a lot. I feel horrible about what happened in August that led me to move out. expecially since shes not doing so well these days.I told her about school and my job and about this guy I talked to and she was very proud. It was something I needed to hear. That someone was proud of me. When I walked into the house, it was raining and shtty and when I left the sun was out. I think it was a sign or something. I need to rekindle my relationship with her since shes getting older.
My grandfather on the other hand, is another story. He walks into the kitchen and just starts with "dont you feel like shit coming into this house and acting like nothing happened?" No grandpa, I dont. I apologized to Grandma and were alright now. Im not apologizing to you, Cause im not sorry. Blah whatever. Beggers cant be choosers.
Back to the begining. Back and forth. "I just want you to see you happy. What ever that is... Go for it." Best thing I heard all week. Its great to know someone is there for you, even though you thought he wasn't.
Off to my new job. Blah. ll update more later.
I had coffee with my Grandmother this morning. It was nice. I miss that lady a lot. I feel horrible about what happened in August that led me to move out. expecially since shes not doing so well these days.I told her about school and my job and about this guy I talked to and she was very proud. It was something I needed to hear. That someone was proud of me. When I walked into the house, it was raining and shtty and when I left the sun was out. I think it was a sign or something. I need to rekindle my relationship with her since shes getting older.
My grandfather on the other hand, is another story. He walks into the kitchen and just starts with "dont you feel like shit coming into this house and acting like nothing happened?" No grandpa, I dont. I apologized to Grandma and were alright now. Im not apologizing to you, Cause im not sorry. Blah whatever. Beggers cant be choosers.
Back to the begining. Back and forth. "I just want you to see you happy. What ever that is... Go for it." Best thing I heard all week. Its great to know someone is there for you, even though you thought he wasn't.
Off to my new job. Blah. ll update more later.