boriiiiiiiiiiiing~!
hey hey hey the holidays are like ending soon! so soon! and i feel like its been so boring i feel like ripping my guts out! haha yeah have been stuck at home doing nothing at all i feel so sien if thats the word..like soooo erm...i dono its the only word i can think of and i cant seem to put it in english so yeah its the worse feeling of all. so ive been stuck at home and everything i can watch...in the computer i have watched and all. so yeah all hte 100 episods of gundam seed and gundam seed destiny. its all gone now. and now i really have no idea wad to do. i finished reading mekakushi no kuni for the 2nd time and still cry at it. i think im getting more and more emotional i have no idea why...heck i even cry in gundam! and its all about war! i dono i cant seem to get enough shojo into me. i think i have become one of those people that are thinking of you noe getting into a relationship. i noe everyone wants to be loved and all and i think im...actually i really have no idea wad im talking about now so lets just end it here. no im not sum desperado. its just the feeling of loneliness that sumtimes slip by you and then you keep thinking about it and then feel that you need someone to fulfil your emotional needs? am i making sense? haha anyway, there are people having like problems back home and i feel like im sum counsellor and all and it feels like i really want to go home and all. i really want to see all these people and feel for them their grieve then pull them out of it. yeah thats wad i wana do. but me being here is so hard! so yeah wadever. just took a break from eating chippies! yummy! haha feeling all full now. maybe i needed the food to make me think better! haha nah. still feeling the loneliness. so yeah aaaaaaaaanyway, i had like 2 driving lessons with nick yesterday and today! and it was sooo fun! haha i like driving! its cool! and it was manual too! so yeah and then only thing hard was the starting when it gets all complicated when you have to do the revs and the clutch thingy at the same time. so yeah. and like i dono wad else...hmm i really dono then i tried studying and all for the exams but its real hard i have no idea why too! but yeah i have been trying to do the physics exercises that i bought and im really trying sumtimes i can do it and sumtimes i cant and thats when i get all pissy about it and then i throw the book aside and go urgh! wadever! yeah so i think i might be going out tomolo! yay! haha and i need to get sum drugs so i can sleep...haha nah supplements!