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if i could offer any advice, i would tell you to never let someone, despite how much you love and care for them, become all of your world. because when it's over, you have nothing left.
losing someone, even if not by death, that you love is painful. i feel so hopeless right now, so used, like he doesn't care anymore. he got everything he wanted; and now he's gone.
i always pitied people who cried during break-ups, but in seven months this boy turned my world upside-down and made me into the person i'd always wanted to be. and i don't regret one minute of it, and i can't help crying and wondering - what am i supposed to do now?
all i can do is sit here and ask - does he still love me? care for me? is he going to fight for this? or is everything, in one simple night, over. everything i fought for. argued for. loved for. cried for. over.
i want to go back a month ago, where no sex or anything was involved, when i was sure he loved me for all the right reasons. i want that back more than anything in the world. i want to hear 'i love you' again, and have some kind of feeling behind it.
i just want him.
losing someone, even if not by death, that you love is painful. i feel so hopeless right now, so used, like he doesn't care anymore. he got everything he wanted; and now he's gone.
i always pitied people who cried during break-ups, but in seven months this boy turned my world upside-down and made me into the person i'd always wanted to be. and i don't regret one minute of it, and i can't help crying and wondering - what am i supposed to do now?
all i can do is sit here and ask - does he still love me? care for me? is he going to fight for this? or is everything, in one simple night, over. everything i fought for. argued for. loved for. cried for. over.
i want to go back a month ago, where no sex or anything was involved, when i was sure he loved me for all the right reasons. i want that back more than anything in the world. i want to hear 'i love you' again, and have some kind of feeling behind it.
i just want him.