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Life is so wonderful sometimes. Just knowing that you have people who care about you, and will help you in anyways they can, is a very comforting feeling.
I've been stressed lately, being sick and having finals comming up, and I've been forgetting the really important things in life. The things that you can always rely on to have you back, the things that make you give a little laugh and sigh of relief, the things that we live for- things like friends.
I've been busy, thinking about college, even though I'm only a junior, and how it's going to affect us so much. It will affect our friendships now, and in years to come. It will affect relationships (ew, boys are gross, haha) of past and future (and present if applies). It will affect our jobs and life in the "real world" (if there is suck a thing). And it affects families. Families of the ones leaving, families who have to deal with their child whose good friend leaving, and families that have been abandoned by their child going away to school.
College is going to change my life next year and the year after. One of my best friends going away, whom I talk to atleast twice a day, who promises that we will stay best friends, and that we will still talk EVERYDAY... which I think is kind of naive thinking, but hopeful thinking... Then there's the stuff like, Applying to schools for the following year. That is going to be crazy. Then there's the whole scholarship searching stuff. With low grades, I'm going to have to search high and low for things that can help me pay... since I'm on my own with money and all. But, I have to figure out what I even KIND of want to do with my life, which is impossible (i haven't had any ideas ever... except for like 3 in kindergarten which lasted a week, and could never hold try now. Artist-have you ever seen my art? haha... Teacher- There's no way I could follow the crowd with this one... I can't do it. and... hmm... I think a VET- haha, that requires dealing with sick animals, and having some die. Couldn't handle that, and there's also needles and haha HOLDING the animals. Plus, my allergies couldn't handle that one. (i mean, my allergies aren't that bad, but if i'm around certain animals for more than a few hours, i get itchy and stuffy and eyes itch too... so nope.) So I have to figure this out, and then I have to figure out WHERE I could and want to apply. That's an even bigger HAH! lol. I have no idea, and really haven't HAD any ideas ever.
And then, more immediate. There's finals. Next week, starting with english, first hour on tuesday. Actually, my english started today with the in class essay. I'm not sure how I did on it. I hope I did well. I hate in class essays. And then, presentations for modern world (history) start on friday. Our final is a video project. I'm curious how that's going to go for my group only 1/5 of us have done one before... and he's had lot's more time to make it than this. We are filming in 2 maybe 3 days... it will be interesting. But, I guess it's better than a written test, considering we haven't had ONE in that class so far this year, haha. My two hardest Finals will probably be math and psychology. even though we already had a mid term in math, our test is from the beginning of the year, UH OH!! mut yeah. I have both of those on friday, so I have time to prepare. The only thing I've been stressed on already, was the essay I had to write today... So i'm not all that stressed anymore.
Then, There's solo ensemble. HAH. That's a joke. Abbi and I have practiced our duet once so far, and our solos... don't even go there. I can't play it... in tempo. haha. It's not all that fast, it's only 60 beats per quarter note, but there's a bunch of 16th noes, and it's hard for me to keep the same tempo. Also, I'm nervous about playing with an accompianist. They don't have to know how much I suck, really! lol.
I think... I might have run out of things in my head at the moment, but I thought I should update... so here it is.
I've been stressed lately, being sick and having finals comming up, and I've been forgetting the really important things in life. The things that you can always rely on to have you back, the things that make you give a little laugh and sigh of relief, the things that we live for- things like friends.
I've been busy, thinking about college, even though I'm only a junior, and how it's going to affect us so much. It will affect our friendships now, and in years to come. It will affect relationships (ew, boys are gross, haha) of past and future (and present if applies). It will affect our jobs and life in the "real world" (if there is suck a thing). And it affects families. Families of the ones leaving, families who have to deal with their child whose good friend leaving, and families that have been abandoned by their child going away to school.
College is going to change my life next year and the year after. One of my best friends going away, whom I talk to atleast twice a day, who promises that we will stay best friends, and that we will still talk EVERYDAY... which I think is kind of naive thinking, but hopeful thinking... Then there's the stuff like, Applying to schools for the following year. That is going to be crazy. Then there's the whole scholarship searching stuff. With low grades, I'm going to have to search high and low for things that can help me pay... since I'm on my own with money and all. But, I have to figure out what I even KIND of want to do with my life, which is impossible (i haven't had any ideas ever... except for like 3 in kindergarten which lasted a week, and could never hold try now. Artist-have you ever seen my art? haha... Teacher- There's no way I could follow the crowd with this one... I can't do it. and... hmm... I think a VET- haha, that requires dealing with sick animals, and having some die. Couldn't handle that, and there's also needles and haha HOLDING the animals. Plus, my allergies couldn't handle that one. (i mean, my allergies aren't that bad, but if i'm around certain animals for more than a few hours, i get itchy and stuffy and eyes itch too... so nope.) So I have to figure this out, and then I have to figure out WHERE I could and want to apply. That's an even bigger HAH! lol. I have no idea, and really haven't HAD any ideas ever.
And then, more immediate. There's finals. Next week, starting with english, first hour on tuesday. Actually, my english started today with the in class essay. I'm not sure how I did on it. I hope I did well. I hate in class essays. And then, presentations for modern world (history) start on friday. Our final is a video project. I'm curious how that's going to go for my group only 1/5 of us have done one before... and he's had lot's more time to make it than this. We are filming in 2 maybe 3 days... it will be interesting. But, I guess it's better than a written test, considering we haven't had ONE in that class so far this year, haha. My two hardest Finals will probably be math and psychology. even though we already had a mid term in math, our test is from the beginning of the year, UH OH!! mut yeah. I have both of those on friday, so I have time to prepare. The only thing I've been stressed on already, was the essay I had to write today... So i'm not all that stressed anymore.
Then, There's solo ensemble. HAH. That's a joke. Abbi and I have practiced our duet once so far, and our solos... don't even go there. I can't play it... in tempo. haha. It's not all that fast, it's only 60 beats per quarter note, but there's a bunch of 16th noes, and it's hard for me to keep the same tempo. Also, I'm nervous about playing with an accompianist. They don't have to know how much I suck, really! lol.
I think... I might have run out of things in my head at the moment, but I thought I should update... so here it is.