I Am A Veteran Of Love
I GOT SEX AND THE CITY!!!!!!
i wasnt expecting it to come that fast. and i woke up this morning and went downstairs and there it was. i was screaming for like 10 minutes. and then i sat on my bed and hugged it for another ten minutes and then i read all the episodes even though ive seen them all, which was like another half an hour. then i watched season 2 disc 2. i cant wwait to see whats on the bonus disc.
i gave my room a hardcore cleaning. i even went through my closet that i kept throwing various things into. im getting rid of some bags. and now its all neat and just really nice to look at. and i feel really good about myself now.
last night i wasnt feeling so great. i dont understand why i dont sleep or eat. i got really fed up with myself last night. i felt irresponsible even though i feel like its not my fault i cant sleep. i think about too much when its time to get rest and i get panicky and its so strange and unpleasant. i feel a general lonesomeness in life and you feel it the most at night when you feel like the whole world is sleeping and you are the only one sitting up by yourself. when i get like that i have to put lights on cause i get freaked out, and i usually rent a movie. last night it was employee of the month which was so terrible. this month i dont feel the pmdd. which is really really really really nice. well not yet anyway
tomorrow im going to a homeschool meeting. i am pretty scared. i dont want to be around other kids, theyre not gonna like me and my mom will probably embarrass me. and monday i told hannah i would go to urban to drop off books. and im nervous about that. everyone lingers around urban territory after school.
i wish it was last year. things were really nice then. it makes me want it now
i remodeled a dress i found in my closet. its really granny but theres something cool about it. and i cut it up and now its coOLiessss!
my sister is coming home soon!
im going to visit her in spain!
and im uninteresting. goodbye