sei : "everybody's gotta live their life and god knows i've got to live mine"
it's raining and i'm bored and i don't want to be here and i don't have a job and i've been reading for weeks and dealing with poor customer service from multiple places and finding unnecessary drama. No One here ever calls you back, even people that ask you to call them. i miss having a private life, i miss not having to answer to anyone. it should be terrifying to think of leaving the place i spent eightteen years but all i want to do is leave. there are only a few reasons i'm still here this summer and some days it's not seeming worth it. i feel torn, but mostly antsy. i've been let down so many times in the past few weeks that i'm beginning to hate ocean county. a lot. and if it really keeps raining like this, i'm going to spazz out, drive to md, and live in my car all summer. all i want to do is start a real life, and i just don't feel like i can do that here. so now i'm just stewing in a lot of thoughts and emotions, because i have nothing else to occupy my time. stunningly however i've been managing to live on the same $30 for the past three weeks or so. i was born to be poor and happy. right now i'm only one of those...