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Wow, I have been sitting here reading past entries and I am in complete astonashment. I am a fucking loser lol. It's almost embarassing what I have posted on here. Nothing intellectual, nothing worth reading, high school dramatic bullshit..that's all it is. Why do I even have this thing anymore? Who knows, maybe i'll actually start writing in it more often.
I guess life is about the same, except now im in college. It's really no different then High School in most aspects. Same drama, same stupid people, same bullshit. I mean at least I can choose my classes that is pretty rad I will admit. I just don't do anything really except sit in this dorm room. I can't visit home because it's too far away, but I don't think I would really want to go back anyway. I've returned once and I just hated it, it is such a horrible place. I duno, I suppose college isn't that bad. There are some cool people here I will admit. It just seems weird, I always thought of Portland as some kick ass place(which it is) but now that I am here I've realized how incredibly trendy it is here. Most people look the same. I duno why this bugs me so much but it does. I always felt like an outcast in Burns because nobody was like me and all I wanted was a place to go where I was accepted and now that I'm here I've realized people are just the same. Even though they dress similar to me, and their views are alot the same..most of them are still assholes. Most of them still give into the evil corporations and go shopping at "Hot Topic" and get their coffee from godforsaken Starbucks. And all this time I still dress like them, smoke, drink coffee...every damn thing that is so usuall of a Portlander. I'm never going to give up the things I do but god, I don't want to seem like another mindless idiot. I guess it will just take some getting used to. I mean if all else fails I've always got my literature and my music.
Speaking of music. I made the biggest mix ever basically. Katrina really wanted a huge mix of various genres and asked me to create one so...I did. It is basically a monster. But goddamn its good and I can't stop listening to it. The genres mixed together sound so perfect. Folk, Hardcore, Punk, Metal, Indie...it's all great together. I'll post the tracklisting later but not now since I have class. And if you don't know some of the stuff on there you should look into it. I might even put the genre next to the name so you know if you'd be interested, but maybe not because im a lazy ass and that takes alot of effort. I guess this is all I have time for but I'll continue this discussion another day.
I guess life is about the same, except now im in college. It's really no different then High School in most aspects. Same drama, same stupid people, same bullshit. I mean at least I can choose my classes that is pretty rad I will admit. I just don't do anything really except sit in this dorm room. I can't visit home because it's too far away, but I don't think I would really want to go back anyway. I've returned once and I just hated it, it is such a horrible place. I duno, I suppose college isn't that bad. There are some cool people here I will admit. It just seems weird, I always thought of Portland as some kick ass place(which it is) but now that I am here I've realized how incredibly trendy it is here. Most people look the same. I duno why this bugs me so much but it does. I always felt like an outcast in Burns because nobody was like me and all I wanted was a place to go where I was accepted and now that I'm here I've realized people are just the same. Even though they dress similar to me, and their views are alot the same..most of them are still assholes. Most of them still give into the evil corporations and go shopping at "Hot Topic" and get their coffee from godforsaken Starbucks. And all this time I still dress like them, smoke, drink coffee...every damn thing that is so usuall of a Portlander. I'm never going to give up the things I do but god, I don't want to seem like another mindless idiot. I guess it will just take some getting used to. I mean if all else fails I've always got my literature and my music.
Speaking of music. I made the biggest mix ever basically. Katrina really wanted a huge mix of various genres and asked me to create one so...I did. It is basically a monster. But goddamn its good and I can't stop listening to it. The genres mixed together sound so perfect. Folk, Hardcore, Punk, Metal, Indie...it's all great together. I'll post the tracklisting later but not now since I have class. And if you don't know some of the stuff on there you should look into it. I might even put the genre next to the name so you know if you'd be interested, but maybe not because im a lazy ass and that takes alot of effort. I guess this is all I have time for but I'll continue this discussion another day.