The Truth Behind Arizona's Past (6/6)
Title: The Truth Behind Arizona's Past
Author: sgafirenity
Pairing: Callie/Arizona
Rating: PG-13
Summary: This is following the moment at the end of 6.18. It’s going to resolve the baby issues these two are having by bringing up some of Arizona’s past. There is something in Arizona's past that is the reason she doesn't want kids. What could it be?
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Author's Note: So this is the final chapter. I have to say first thanx to all of your for sticking through this sad fic of mine. Second, I'd like to thank autumn_65 and coliebearz for helping me out. You guys rock. :D
Without further ado, here is the final chapter to "The Truth Behind Arizona's Past". Ironically the title of this chapter was what I was originally going to call this story.
CHAPTER 6 - IS LOVE ENOUGH?
Kids, it's not an easy subject. Usually it comes down to a yes or a no, not a maybe. Okay at first, a maybe sounded great to one Calliope Torres because this meant she would be able to be with the one she loves but it's not that simple. She may be able to spend her lifetime with Arizona Robbins but what if her maybe turns into a never? Then what? How does she get past that? Does she live the rest of her life sitting in parks imagining what her life could have been like? Would she be able to survive that?
What it really comes down to....? Is love enough?
Is finding that one "special person" that you love with all your heart really worth sacrificing the one thing you've wanted your entire life? Is it worth wondering if that special person will change their mind about something that they probably decided when they were younger? How does one deal with something like that? How do you choose? Do you stay with the person you love and give up a family or do you leave the person you love to have a family?
Why does it have to be so hard? Why does it have to even be a choice? Usually, it's simple but this time it's not. With George it was simple. True, Callie had, in the back of her mind, somehow known that the only reason she wanted a kid with him was to ensure their marriage lasted but still. He wanted a baby. Why is it that the one person she has fallen head over heels in love with, the most kid-like woman, doesn't want kids of her own? What kind of joke is that?
Right now Callie is thinking about all these questions as she stares into the nursery at all the newborn babies. Some of them are being held by the new mom or dad, some sleeping away or staring at the people around them. It brings a smile to Callie's face but also tears because she may never be that person in there holding her baby. She may never be able to hold Arizona's baby girl or boy. The thought brings tears to her eyes. And sure she may change her mind about kids, but what if she doesn't? Is it really worth the risk?
Without Callie being aware a woman walks up and stands beside Callie, "Is one of them yours?"
At first the question doesn't register and Callie just stares before realizing the woman asked her a question. "Oh, no...I just work here at the hospital and thought I'd come down and look at the newborns." She looks back at the babies hoping the woman would just leave her alone.
But alas, the woman continues talking to her. "Hm.....that's too bad. By the way you're looking at those babies, it sure seems like you're either a mother or want to be one."
Callie slightly smiles and shrugs.
"Ah I see, you must be here because... your boyfriend doesn't want kids?" She notices Callie's breathing hitch slightly. "And so you thought coming here would help. You know I used to know someone in your place right now. She wanted kids, boy did she want kids but the person she was with didn't." The woman looks into the nursery as Callie looks back at her.
"What happened, if you don't mind me asking?" She asks curious to know what happened in this story.
"The woman did as you did. She chose love over a family of her own. Now at first, it was great, she loved her life and she thought she made the right decision. That is.....until one day everything changed. She started to see children everywhere, and she was reminded of what she loved about kids. She began to wonder what it would have been like to have kids. That's when things changed. Her husband didn't want kids and nothing was going to change that. He had his life and he didn't want things to change but she did. She wanted a family. And of course he kept saying, we're a family what more could you want. It wasn't enough though." She sighs as if it is her memory.
"Her husband began to lose her. He hadn't realized just how much she wanted a child until the issue began creating distance in their relationship. He began to realize he was wrong for making her choose between him and children. After some time he did change his mind, he swayed her way and they had a child." She turns back to Callie. "What I'm trying to say here is, don't give up something because you think it's the right thing to do. Give it up because it's what you want to do. If you don't want to give it up, don't let someone or something stand in your way because you might miss out on something pretty incredible."
"Mom, there you are." Another woman comes up to the woman standing next to Callie. "I thought you said you were going to come in and meet your grandson?"
"I am, I'll be right there okay sweetheart?"
"Okay," the younger woman walks back over to the entrance to the nursery.
Callie looks at her curiously wondering if the story was even true or not.
The woman interprets the look on Callie's face, "You'll never know whether the story was true or not. The question is: How will you use what you learned from it? Now, I better get in there before my daughter comes back out here looking for me." She smiles once more before heading to the entrance.
Callie looks from the nursery and into her pocket as she fiddles with what has felt like a ton of weight all day. Wondering if now is really the best time for it or is she doing this all wrong. Is she going to end up regretting her life with Arizona? This little black velvet box could change everything. The question is.... is it worth it? Is love enough to survive anything?
It's very rare but sometimes these days occur when Callie works and Arizona doesn't. So usually for Callie, coming home on one of these days was always interesting because usually she was met with either some kind of take-out or Mac-and-Cheese for food. However, it was usually Chinese because Arizona seems to have an infinite for it.
This time however was very different from the usual because this day......could be the last. Callie doesn't want it to be the end but what's to come could very well mean the end of them.
"Hey, you're home." Arizona looks up from her computer on the couch all cheery. "So I was thinking with all the drama and such that we've been dealing with for the last few days I thought maybe we could go on a trip or something. A vacation to clear our heads of recent events, what do you think?" Her face lit up with a dimple grin looking for any indication that Callie thinks it's a great idea too. That is until she sees the look on Callie's face as she sits down on the table in front of her. "What's wrong? Did something happen at work?"
Ever since Callie sat down she has been looking down at her feet not wanting to show the emotion she is feeling right now. Emotion, that she knows Arizona would be able to spot in a second. "I don't think I can do this?"
"What, going on vacation?" She looks her confused. "I mean we don't have to go on vacation, it was just an idea."
Callie finally looks up at Arizona, emotion clearly evident in her facial features. If that didn't give it away, the tears forming in her eyes did, "No, that's not what I'm talking about."
"Calliope, what's wrong?"
She takes a deep breath not wanting to say what has been eating her since she left the hospital, "I love you." Her voice breaks, "everything about you but I don't think a maybe is enough."
Then realization hits Arizona. She knows what this is about. It's not about her idea for a vacation; it's about having a baby. Her smile fades as she lets go of a breath she didn't realize she was holding.
"I want it to be enough because I love you with all my heart but I can't change what I want and I can't ask you to change for me." A tear falls down her cheek.
"I can't be the one who stops you from having a baby." Tears begin to fill in Arizona's eyes. "I love you too much to hope for that."
"I want to be with you Arizona but I can't...." her voice breaks as another tear falls.
Arizona places a hand on Callie's, "I can't let you sacrifice you're dream for me." She looks into Callie's pleading eyes seeing what she doesn't like seeing in her Calliope. "Come here," she pats the spot next to her knowing this is the end.
Callie doesn't think twice before moving from the table to the couch. Before she is even aware Arizona cups her face with her two hands and presses her lips to hers. She can feel all the love they have shared rushing through her. Without thinking her hand reaches up to Arizona's cheek pulling her for more not wanting to let go of her just yet.
Pulling apart, they rest their foreheads against each other. Callie speaks first, "What are we going to do?" Asking this question was the hardest thing for her because the inevitable was coming.
"Well, I'm going to get my stuff together," Arizona says with emotion knowing that this was the end. They were over, and it's all her fault. If she hadn't had this stupid fear that her next child would get sick again, she wouldn't be in this situation. They wouldn't be breaking up, they would be figuring out when to have a baby.
Callie pulls her forehead away and wraps her arms around Arizona not wanting to let go. She knew that once she did, this would be the end of them. End of the stable relationship that has been the talk of the hospital.
Their relationship was now ending over a baby issue that couldn't be resolved.
I guess love wasn't enough for Callie and Arizona.
THE END
Thank You for Reading
I know that was sad...but I have a sequel planned. I actually have two sequels planned. The "Muddy Buddy" inspired sequel is going to be after this next one. So this storyline is going from being a 2 part saga to a 3 part saga.
So watch out for my sequel. I'm hoping to start writing it soon.
--SGAFirenity--