The Truth Behind Arizona's Past (5/6)
Title: The Truth Behind Arizona's Past
Author: sgafirenity
Pairing: Callie/Arizona
Rating: PG-13
Summary:This is following the moment at the end of 6.18. It’s going to resolve the baby issues these two are having by bringing up some of Arizona’s past. There is something in Arizona's past that is the reason she doesn't want kids. What could it be?
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Author's Note: Okay, don't kill me, this chapter is WAY shorter than what I usually post but really if I would have made it longer it probably wouldn't be so good.
Plus don't worry I'm hoping to write and post the last chapter of this, chapter 6, in the next day or so because at first I just wanted to end it. Now however because of 6.20 and that story called "Muddy Buddy", I've been inspired to write a sequel to this. And so I just want to end this story because in the sequel is where a lot of the happy moments are going to be.
CHAPTER 5 - IT'S BECAUSE OF YOU...
Callie looks at her stunned. He was her....son. Her mouth slightly opens in shock as her eyes go wide. Out of all the things she was thinking Arizona was going to say to her...this was not one of them. Arizona, the girl that doesn't want kids has previously had a son.
"He was the cutest little boy. He lit up my day everyday with his cute little smile and laugh. Everything about him showed what kids are and what they're like. He made me love my job, even more. But when...." She shakes her head at the memory as she looks back down at the picture. "When he was diagnosed with the Alexander's Disease when he was only a year and half, it broke my heart. My son was going to die."
This is why she doesn't want kids. Callie looks at her girlfriend watching her fall apart in front of her. Her beautiful, perky, happy all the time curly blonde girlfriend, losing the cheer that she always sees on her face in an instant.
"I did as any surgeon did and did my research but....there was no cure. I couldn't...." She drags off not being able to finish the sentence.
"It's okay. You don't need to say it. I get it. You did everything you could have. But you have to know....that won't happen again. Our baby won't get Alexander Disease or end up in your NICU. He or she won't and if they do...." Arizona's eyes slowly look back over at Callie. "....I won't leave you."
"Callie...you don't understand!" Arizona stands up abruptly.
Callie, she mouths her nickname to herself in shock. Arizona doesn't call me by my nickname.
"What if it's hereditary? What if our baby gets the same disease and we...we have to watch him or her die? What if that happens? I can't watch my son or daughter die again! I can't! That's why I don't want kids. And I know you want kids and I can't give you them. I don't want them. I did in the past but now I don't. I don't want you to give up your dream for....me." She turns around and walks away creating distance between them.
However Callie isn't going to give up so easily. "Maybe you're right." She watches Arizona freeze in her tracks, right in the doorway to Callie's bedroom. "Maybe I should do that....maybe I should leave you and find someone who wants a baby and have a baby with them." She notices Arizona tense up again. "I could do that....but I can't." It barely comes out as a whisper but Arizona still hears it.
"You are my dream, Arizona. And yes, I want a baby, I've wanted baby for as long as I can remember....." Tears begin to form in her eyes as she stares at Arizona's back from where she is sitting. "But I want a baby with you.....not with someone else. You are my dream. You always have been. Ever since you kissed me in that dirty bar bathroom. You had the courage to come in there and fix a broken girl, put her back together again. And for that, I'm grateful because I was broken for a long time. You did that."
Slowly she stands up wanting to make Arizona know she's who she wants to be with. She doesn't want to be with someone else. "Do you want to know why I want a baby?" She watches as Arizona slowly turns around to face Callie.
Arizona averts her gaze not wanting to look into the eyes of her potentially ex-girlfriend.
"I don't just want a baby. I want...your baby." She slowly makes her way closer to Arizona. A small smile graces Callie's lips, "I want a cute little boy or girl with your bouncy blonde curls," her hand runs through Arizona's hair. "And your amazing dimples that make my knees go weak almost every time you smile." A dimpled smile appears. "Yeah, just like that. Sparkling ocean blue eyes that make my heart melt every time you look at me. That's why I want a baby Arizona. I want a mini you."
Their eyes connect and Callie can see the love in them.
"I want to have those silly arguments when our kid sees you wearing those roller skate shoes, and wants a pair. Of course we would get a pair or more like you would get them a pair." Arizona smiles at the thought. "I want to treat all the broken bones that I'll have to fix because our kid fell because of the roller skate shoes or played too hard at the playground. I want to watch you read a story to our kid because I bet that you would do voices and maybe act it out too. You would make a great mom. We would make great parents."
"Callio-"
Callie places a finger on her lips, "If I have wait years for that, I will because you are who I want to be with." She pulls her finger away to let Arizona speak.
"Calliope, you do realize I may never want kids right? I mean you are essentially giving up your dream.....for me." She puts emphasis on the last two words as she looks up into those brown orbs she has come to love so very much.
She slowly nods, "I know that and I get it. But the potentiality of having kids is better than a definite no. Plus you know you want a miniature me." A smile appears as she chuckles slightly.
Arizona smiles too at the thought of having a mini Callie in their life.
For Arizona, ever since she was young she has wanted kids but ever since Max, that dream went away. However with Callie, that dream is starting to re-emerge into her life. She may not admit it, maybe not yet, but that dream is becoming more and more real again. Callie is right, the disease isn't hereditary but there's always that fear that it will happen again. That she and Callie will have a kid with the same disease and he or she will die.
Really she shouldn't hold onto Callie because there is a chance that she will never want kids again but Callie won't let her go. She can't and quite frankly, neither can Arizona. She never wants to let go of her. So maybe down the road, just maybe, she will change her mind and give into her childhood dream. Have kids with Calliope Iphigenia Torres.
"So, can we stop with the fighting?" Callie wipes at the tears in her eyes. "I thought you and I were going to watch a movie last night?"
Arizona smiles as she wipes her tears away too. Realizing that there is no way Callie and her are going to break up any time soon she decides to just bask in this feeling now. She wants her now and maybe down the road she won't but right she wants to be with her. So she gives in and answers her question, "Right, we were going to watch Shrek 2 right?"
Callie hangs her head, "Ugh....really?" She brings her head back up, "I thought it was my turn to choose a movie because we watched Shrek last time. Weren't we going to watch Transformers 2?"
Arizona quirks her eyebrow, "No I don't think so, I'm pretty sure we were going to watch Shrek 2." A sly smile appears trying to convince Callie she is right even though she knows she's not. It really is Callie's turn to choose the movie but she really wants to watch a movie that will lift her spirits. So that it can help bring back the happy, bouncy side of her.
"Uh-huh...sure," she wraps her arm around Arizona's shoulders.
Arizona looks at her all innocent, "Ya, I'm quite sure that is what we decided to watch."
Callie raises an eyebrow, "Fine, we'll watch Shrek 2 because well......everything that's been going on but next time we are watching the movie I want to watch, deal?" She sticks out her hand.
"Deal," Arizona shakes her hand as she crosses her fingers behind herself.
With that they walk back into Callie's bedroom, shutting the door to get ready to watch their movie. They probably won't watch much of the movie as they usually get distracted. The distracter is usually the one who didn't really want to watch the movie in the first place but hey, that's their relationship. And for now that's how it's going to be. Two people living life in love.
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--SGAFirenity--