"Faith" by kyrdwyn (Slave/Bond Challenge)
Title: Faith
Author: kyrdwyn
Rating: G
Paring: Gen
Spoilers: 38 Minutes
Summary: In a way he envies Markham and Stackhouse
Notes: Un-beta'd
"Faith"
Rodney McKay knows he is not a brave man. He would much rather be in the room with Kavanagh, Grodin, and Simpson, or in Jumper 2 with the Czech engineer, than here in Jumper 1 with Teyla and Ford and Major Sheppard with his unwanted guest.
It's not that he doesn't like his companions. It's just that he doesn't like the situation - stuck in the gate with less than half an hour before the jumper is cut in half and they all die.
In a way he envies Markham and Stackhouse, stuck in the oblivion of dematerialization. They will never know their fate, don't have to sit and smell the fear of too many scared people trapped in one small space.
If he were alone, Rodney would probably give into his growing sense of doom. He would tell Elizabeth he was working on the problem while panicking once the radio was off, certain that nothing the team on Atlantis did would save him.
There is nothing preventing him from doing that now, really. It would be easy to just sit and fiddle with his computer and the wires and give Teyla and Ford false hope that he will get them out of this. The disappointment in their eyes when the gate shut down would hurt, until the hard vacuum suffocated them to death, at which point none of them would care.
But he works the problem, forcing himself past the oh God we are all going to die feeling in his stomach. He is bound to this unaccustomed bravery by the look in Major Sheppard's eyes. The look that says I know you will get us out of this. Every time he thinks about giving up, he looks back over at Sheppard. No matter what kind of personal pain he's in, no matter what he says, his eyes still convey that unshakable faith in Rodney McKay.
It's that unspoken belief that holds him chained to reality, to his computer and the jumper systems. He could deal with disappointing Teyla and Ford. Yet the thought of the light in Major Sheppard's eyes turning dark with disillusionment, or being extinguished by death, chills Rodney to the bone.
He will find a way out of this. If only to earn the unexpected trust Major Sheppard has given him.
Author: kyrdwyn
Rating: G
Paring: Gen
Spoilers: 38 Minutes
Summary: In a way he envies Markham and Stackhouse
Notes: Un-beta'd
"Faith"
Rodney McKay knows he is not a brave man. He would much rather be in the room with Kavanagh, Grodin, and Simpson, or in Jumper 2 with the Czech engineer, than here in Jumper 1 with Teyla and Ford and Major Sheppard with his unwanted guest.
It's not that he doesn't like his companions. It's just that he doesn't like the situation - stuck in the gate with less than half an hour before the jumper is cut in half and they all die.
In a way he envies Markham and Stackhouse, stuck in the oblivion of dematerialization. They will never know their fate, don't have to sit and smell the fear of too many scared people trapped in one small space.
If he were alone, Rodney would probably give into his growing sense of doom. He would tell Elizabeth he was working on the problem while panicking once the radio was off, certain that nothing the team on Atlantis did would save him.
There is nothing preventing him from doing that now, really. It would be easy to just sit and fiddle with his computer and the wires and give Teyla and Ford false hope that he will get them out of this. The disappointment in their eyes when the gate shut down would hurt, until the hard vacuum suffocated them to death, at which point none of them would care.
But he works the problem, forcing himself past the oh God we are all going to die feeling in his stomach. He is bound to this unaccustomed bravery by the look in Major Sheppard's eyes. The look that says I know you will get us out of this. Every time he thinks about giving up, he looks back over at Sheppard. No matter what kind of personal pain he's in, no matter what he says, his eyes still convey that unshakable faith in Rodney McKay.
It's that unspoken belief that holds him chained to reality, to his computer and the jumper systems. He could deal with disappointing Teyla and Ford. Yet the thought of the light in Major Sheppard's eyes turning dark with disillusionment, or being extinguished by death, chills Rodney to the bone.
He will find a way out of this. If only to earn the unexpected trust Major Sheppard has given him.