Re: Hamster Wheel 3/4, John/Rodney, humiliation, d/S
anonymous
September 11 2010, 05:28:38 UTC
He wants it to last forever, as long as possible, but the Rodney never lets him have his way on that unless they're both on the bed. He feels Rodney's cock stiffen further and his mind goes white and empty as he sucks harder. Rodney's hands are holding both sides of his jaw now, almost tender, and there's nothing, nothing, just hot thickness sliding in and out, in and out, John's hips rocking with it, his cock jerking with each stroke into his mouth -
Rodney comes down John's throat then pulls away to paint his face with the last long spurts. Come splashes his nose and cheeks, hits his chin and into his open mouth, landing on his tongue. He'll taste it later, won't brush his teeth just so he can run his tongue around his mouth and chase the lingering flavor when he's lying in his bed, and he'll wake up hard to the stale memory of it, grinding himself into his narrow monk's bed, until he bites his pillow and stains the sheets.
John comes with Rodney, hard spurts that shake him boneless, mind white with release, and curls over and braces himself on his hands as the last strings of his come spatter the floor between his knees.
He stays there, feeling like he's floating, until Rodney speaks.
"You made a mess all over my floor. Clean it up."
John tries to pull his head together enough to follow those orders, but Rodney's got a rolled up physic's journal in his hand and it smacks his ass as he starts to straighten up.
"All fours, Colonel. Only dogs make messes on the floor. You'll stay on your knees until you clean it up." Rodney pauses and John shivers helplessly, waiting, knowing something more is coming, because Rodney's is an imaginative bastard. "Clean it up like a dog. Use your tongue."
John almost breaks with that, because it's the damned floor, but he whines instead and ducks down, knowing how the position lifts his ass into the air and helplessly responding all over again. He licks his own come up, every drop, while Rodney watches him, and he's lost in it, nosing over the floor as if he were a dog, looking for more, when Rodney starts laughing.
"Jesus, Sheppard, you really love come, don't you?"
John freezes and realizes to his horror he really is half hard again.
"I tell you what," Rodney goes on. "I'm taking a shower, but I'm out of clean underwear. Go through my laundry hamper and find me the cleanest pair. Use your nose. See if you can do it without coming all over yourself and I'll fuck you afterward."
John scrambles his way over to the hamper, cock swinging in the air, already squirming inside with the fear he'll disgrace himself just from sniffing Rodney's boxers, imagining what Rodney will say.
Re: Hamster Wheel 3/4, John/Rodney, humiliation, d/S
anonymous
September 13 2010, 07:09:11 UTC
Rodney won't, but he knows that the idea he could and would is a helpless turn on for John. He can't reassure him without breaking the illusion. He can't be kind. For all of that, he doesn't hurt John or endanger him. Almost everything is happening in John's head, really.
If I look at it from another angle, it's sort of sad for Rodney, because he can never have a relationship with John, just John's kink.
Re: Hamster Wheel 3/4, John/Rodney, humiliation, d/S
anonymous
September 13 2010, 07:15:28 UTC
thingswithwings wrote this great meta for kink_bingo on DW: The Riches of Embarrassment. I was thinking about it the entire time I was writing this, thinking about how to make the humiliation aspect hot. But this went way dark because of John's damage.
Re: Hamster Wheel 3/4, John/Rodney, humiliation, d/S
anonymous
September 13 2010, 14:10:53 UTC
I was pleased, which doesn't necessarily mean you shouldn't invest in psychiatric care (or that I shouldn't).
No, but seriously, this was insanely hot, and now that I'm not on my phone and can say more.... Loved that you touched on the vicious circle aspect of humiliation, and that it was actual humiliation. I think an arrangement like this could be potentially dangerous IRL, but as a fantasy? Yeah, hot.
I'll second whoever else said that a Rodney POV would be awesome here - either as a sequel or as an alternative for this one. I kept thinking whether Rodney plays it out for Sheppard or whether he gets something out of it, too, and if so, what. (If he gets off on the power, or if he gets off on being humiliated himself - he is after all a consenting party here, or if he gets off on *John* being humiliated, etc)
Re: Hamster Wheel 3/4, John/Rodney, humiliation, d/S
anonymous
September 13 2010, 07:34:12 UTC
Damn, here comes the Spiderman quote: with great power comes great responsibility. Rodney is giving John exactly what he needs, calculated to the nth degree. All without ever physically harming John. That takes effort and thought; Rodney only puts that forth for people who matter.
The scary part is John: he's out of control in this dynamic even though he isn't aware of any safety net. It's that (perceived/possible) lack that trips his trigger so hard.
Re: Hamster Wheel 3/4, John/Rodney, humiliation, d/S
anonymous
September 13 2010, 07:36:58 UTC
Yeah, I had no idea something this extreme was lurking in my brain when I started it. I comfort myself with the conviction that no matter how much John worries, because Rodney will never let him know it, he's actually completely safe with Rodney. Rodney's just giving him what he needs.
Of course, the question of whether this give Rodney what he needs and wants is never answered.
Rodney comes down John's throat then pulls away to paint his face with the last long spurts. Come splashes his nose and cheeks, hits his chin and into his open mouth, landing on his tongue. He'll taste it later, won't brush his teeth just so he can run his tongue around his mouth and chase the lingering flavor when he's lying in his bed, and he'll wake up hard to the stale memory of it, grinding himself into his narrow monk's bed, until he bites his pillow and stains the sheets.
John comes with Rodney, hard spurts that shake him boneless, mind white with release, and curls over and braces himself on his hands as the last strings of his come spatter the floor between his knees.
He stays there, feeling like he's floating, until Rodney speaks.
"You made a mess all over my floor. Clean it up."
John tries to pull his head together enough to follow those orders, but Rodney's got a rolled up physic's journal in his hand and it smacks his ass as he starts to straighten up.
"All fours, Colonel. Only dogs make messes on the floor. You'll stay on your knees until you clean it up." Rodney pauses and John shivers helplessly, waiting, knowing something more is coming, because Rodney's is an imaginative bastard. "Clean it up like a dog. Use your tongue."
John almost breaks with that, because it's the damned floor, but he whines instead and ducks down, knowing how the position lifts his ass into the air and helplessly responding all over again. He licks his own come up, every drop, while Rodney watches him, and he's lost in it, nosing over the floor as if he were a dog, looking for more, when Rodney starts laughing.
"Jesus, Sheppard, you really love come, don't you?"
John freezes and realizes to his horror he really is half hard again.
"I tell you what," Rodney goes on. "I'm taking a shower, but I'm out of clean underwear. Go through my laundry hamper and find me the cleanest pair. Use your nose. See if you can do it without coming all over yourself and I'll fuck you afterward."
John scrambles his way over to the hamper, cock swinging in the air, already squirming inside with the fear he'll disgrace himself just from sniffing Rodney's boxers, imagining what Rodney will say.
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If I look at it from another angle, it's sort of sad for Rodney, because he can never have a relationship with John, just John's kink.
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No, but seriously, this was insanely hot, and now that I'm not on my phone and can say more.... Loved that you touched on the vicious circle aspect of humiliation, and that it was actual humiliation. I think an arrangement like this could be potentially dangerous IRL, but as a fantasy? Yeah, hot.
I'll second whoever else said that a Rodney POV would be awesome here - either as a sequel or as an alternative for this one. I kept thinking whether Rodney plays it out for Sheppard or whether he gets something out of it, too, and if so, what. (If he gets off on the power, or if he gets off on being humiliated himself - he is after all a consenting party here, or if he gets off on *John* being humiliated, etc)
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The scary part is John: he's out of control in this dynamic even though he isn't aware of any safety net. It's that (perceived/possible) lack that trips his trigger so hard.
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Of course, the question of whether this give Rodney what he needs and wants is never answered.
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