Five people Sam wishes she could have fallen in love with (2/2)shinealightonmeJuly 20 2009, 09:51:41 UTC
4. Rodney McKay
The very thought of being in love with Rodney McKay, when she'd heard about her alternate self's marriage, was disturbing. He was abrasive and arrogant and he'd called her a dumb blonde and - and - he was McKay. She couldn't think of someone she'd be less likely to marry.
The shock value wore off and, as with many things McKay-related, gave way to a cynical sort of amusement. That was the nature of alternate universes, after all; even the most improbably things happened somewhere. Somewhere, Rodney McKay was a nice guy. It wasn't as thought that were the worst surprise that universe held, after all.
The more time passed, the less it bothered her, though she thought of it from time to time and felt slightly guilty. Perhaps it wasn't so unfathomable after all. Rodney could be a nice guy on occasion. At least, there were some nice things about him. He had certainly seemed to care about her alternative self - no, more than that; her McKay cared about her in some strange, overly presumptuous, but not entirely unwelcome way.
They hadn't worked out in that universe and they would never happen at all in her universe, and at some point Sam began to feel - not regretful, just slightly wistful. There was a side to McKay that most people didn't see; that was something she didn't need an alternate universe to teach her, because she'd already known that for a while, had seen glimpses of it. She would like to see more, to see in him what her other self had seen in the other McKay, but there was too much between them now for romance.
Still, McKay might trust that information to a close friend, and that was an option still open to them.
5. Daniel Jackson
Things would have been easier for her if she could have fallen for Daniel instead of Jack.
It wasn't that she spent her nights lying awake pining for Jack, that she trailed after him with love-sick eyes on missions and day-dreamed her way through debriefings. There was nothing so melodramatic as that. There were just times when she would think about the things she wanted that she couldn't have and her stomach would twist painfully.
She could have had Daniel, but she didn't want him. Some dark part of her whispered that it was a defense strategy, that she didn't really want to risk falling in love with someone she could actually be with. She nearly went out of her mind with frustration and anger at that thought. She didn't like this situation, and it wasn't actually in her power to pick and choose who she fell in love with. All she could do was be as happy as possible under the circumstances.
She didn't know, in any case, that she would have been happier loving Daniel. It wouldn't have made things perfect, or even easy. There would still have been the same battles to fight, the same fatigue, the same heartache. She would have lost him for a year, would still have to worry about his safety every time they stepped through the wormhole, every time she let him out of her sight on base. She just would have had someone to go home with who really understood, and she wanted that too badly to stop wishing for it, no matter how far beyond her reach it seemed.
Re: Five people Sam wishes she could have fallen in love with (2/2)skieswideopenJuly 20 2009, 22:49:47 UTC
There are some great insights into Sam here. #1 is great, with Sam acknowledging the person she isn't, and not just the life she doesn't have. And I love #5, with her musings about how life would have been so much easier if she'd fallen for Daniel rather than Jack.
Re: Five people Sam wishes she could have fallen in love with (2/2)rebeccavoyJuly 21 2009, 02:26:13 UTC
#1 was great, with the stinger at the end. #2 I wouldn't have even thought of, such a great choice! But I think my favourite is #5 - that things would have been easier with Daniel.
Re: Five people Sam wishes she could have fallen in love with (2/2)shinealightonmeJuly 30 2009, 05:49:59 UTC
Glad you liked them! Especially the second, wasn't sure if that would work for other people ^__^ and #5 would have made her life easier, but the heart wants what the heart wants.
Re: Five people Sam wishes she could have fallen in love with (2/2)sidljJuly 28 2009, 17:11:16 UTC
It's hard to imagine Sam trying to fall in love with these people... but of course that wasn't the prompt. The prompt was falling, and that just happens.
Or it doesn't.
But it might have, given more time or less focus on other things. Yeah, Sam's got to wonder how things might have turned out. It's a great list! I'm especially fond of the 'strange' Narim, myself. :-)
Re: Five people Sam wishes she could have fallen in love with (2/2)shinealightonmeJuly 30 2009, 05:45:03 UTC
Thank you! I'm glad you liked it, though some of the choices were a bit out of left-field. And "strange" Narim, well, he always struck me as a bit weird, in a mostly harmless kind of way.
The very thought of being in love with Rodney McKay, when she'd heard about her alternate self's marriage, was disturbing. He was abrasive and arrogant and he'd called her a dumb blonde and - and - he was McKay. She couldn't think of someone she'd be less likely to marry.
The shock value wore off and, as with many things McKay-related, gave way to a cynical sort of amusement. That was the nature of alternate universes, after all; even the most improbably things happened somewhere. Somewhere, Rodney McKay was a nice guy. It wasn't as thought that were the worst surprise that universe held, after all.
The more time passed, the less it bothered her, though she thought of it from time to time and felt slightly guilty. Perhaps it wasn't so unfathomable after all. Rodney could be a nice guy on occasion. At least, there were some nice things about him. He had certainly seemed to care about her alternative self - no, more than that; her McKay cared about her in some strange, overly presumptuous, but not entirely unwelcome way.
They hadn't worked out in that universe and they would never happen at all in her universe, and at some point Sam began to feel - not regretful, just slightly wistful. There was a side to McKay that most people didn't see; that was something she didn't need an alternate universe to teach her, because she'd already known that for a while, had seen glimpses of it. She would like to see more, to see in him what her other self had seen in the other McKay, but there was too much between them now for romance.
Still, McKay might trust that information to a close friend, and that was an option still open to them.
5. Daniel Jackson
Things would have been easier for her if she could have fallen for Daniel instead of Jack.
It wasn't that she spent her nights lying awake pining for Jack, that she trailed after him with love-sick eyes on missions and day-dreamed her way through debriefings. There was nothing so melodramatic as that. There were just times when she would think about the things she wanted that she couldn't have and her stomach would twist painfully.
She could have had Daniel, but she didn't want him. Some dark part of her whispered that it was a defense strategy, that she didn't really want to risk falling in love with someone she could actually be with. She nearly went out of her mind with frustration and anger at that thought. She didn't like this situation, and it wasn't actually in her power to pick and choose who she fell in love with. All she could do was be as happy as possible under the circumstances.
She didn't know, in any case, that she would have been happier loving Daniel. It wouldn't have made things perfect, or even easy. There would still have been the same battles to fight, the same fatigue, the same heartache. She would have lost him for a year, would still have to worry about his safety every time they stepped through the wormhole, every time she let him out of her sight on base. She just would have had someone to go home with who really understood, and she wanted that too badly to stop wishing for it, no matter how far beyond her reach it seemed.
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Or it doesn't.
But it might have, given more time or less focus on other things. Yeah, Sam's got to wonder how things might have turned out. It's a great list! I'm especially fond of the 'strange' Narim, myself. :-)
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