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I FINALLY GOT TO SEE BRIAN TODAY!!! lol.. i missed him soo much when i was gone.. lol gosh i love him. OMG! thursday is goin to be 4 MONTHS!! aww.. i am soo happy!! he makes me soo happy!! *smiling* man i never smile.. except when i am with him.. yeah i know i am obsessed.. but ehh i am HAPPY.. yeah thats right ME HAPPY.. lol you dont usually hear those two words in the same sentence..but on the flip side..
desi is mad at me again.. i havent even talked to her in like 2 weeks.. i havent been home or anything.. and ehh. i dotn even know why.. she wont tell me.. and that is relaly helpin me.. you cant learn from mistakes that you dont knwo about.. i cant take this any more.. and this whole big descion thing... is really hard.. but with everything that is happening.. its kinda makin it easier for me.. i have looked at all the possiblitys.. inside and out.. but i only find one solution.. and only brian, renee, and lindsay know that.. wow.. lol things jsut keep gettin worse.. so much for tryin to get rid of stress.. i am goin to find out why shes mad at me.. cuz yeah i dont see any reason at all.. but hey i jsut cant ever do anything right... hmm.. maybe i should look closer.. cuz i knwo that i am not perfect.. but maybe i did do something.. but all i knwo is that its bad.. i jsut dont understand things anymore.. EVERYTHING IT FALLIN APART!!!
desi is mad at me again.. i havent even talked to her in like 2 weeks.. i havent been home or anything.. and ehh. i dotn even know why.. she wont tell me.. and that is relaly helpin me.. you cant learn from mistakes that you dont knwo about.. i cant take this any more.. and this whole big descion thing... is really hard.. but with everything that is happening.. its kinda makin it easier for me.. i have looked at all the possiblitys.. inside and out.. but i only find one solution.. and only brian, renee, and lindsay know that.. wow.. lol things jsut keep gettin worse.. so much for tryin to get rid of stress.. i am goin to find out why shes mad at me.. cuz yeah i dont see any reason at all.. but hey i jsut cant ever do anything right... hmm.. maybe i should look closer.. cuz i knwo that i am not perfect.. but maybe i did do something.. but all i knwo is that its bad.. i jsut dont understand things anymore.. EVERYTHING IT FALLIN APART!!!