HEY!
guys i fianlly got the internet back!! i am so excited!! i have been goin threw freakin with draw of internet! OMG!! i am sry but i hate our track coach! i seriously do. he just aint fair. ok olivia, erica, cj, and lesley are all great runners. but he didnt even give anyone else a try. yeha i mean sometimes i can goof off but i am usually trying.. and cheering other ppl on. and there are other ppl that deserve the tiem of day he gives them. i love all thoses girls.. and they know i do. its jsut isnt fair that one week of track he already knows who the best is. its not right! o well..
BRIAN AND CJ CAME OVER SATURDAY!! ehh i had to greatest time. i love brian so much. i am soo comfortable when i am with him. me and cj liek never hang out any more.. and liek we were close at my house. we havent been that close in a long time. and everythign jsut seemed so great. everything that used to be empty seemed full that night. i know it doesnt make sense but cjs one of my best friends.. and even though she hurt me terribly.. i still feel "safe" around her. i missed her so much.. but some tiems i wonder if i should u know? like ehh.. everyone that was there for me when i was done.. that hated the things that was goin on.. i feel liek i am hurting them by loving cj (as a friend) i dont know.. i jsut dont want any one to get hurt. i knwo what it feels liek to be hurt.. badly... and i dont want any one to feel anything liek i have felt.
i dont know if i should even write about that. i never really talk about my feelings.. well i do aout some.. but there are some feeling that i cant explain.. that ONLY lindsay and brian even know about. i dont know. i jsut dont understand me any more. i was really really lost at the beginning of the year... but then brian.. hes makin everythign so much better.. so much easier.. i love him so much!! i just.. ehh.. sometiems i dotn think i deserve him.. with all the stuff he knows.. he still loves me back!! it jsut amazes me how 2 people can know so much about 1.. and still not think one bad thign about them.. I LOVE YOU GUYS!! YOU ARE MY BESTEST FRIENDS!!
~brian and lindsay~
well i have to go.. talk to me if you understand how i feel!
ashley
BRIAN AND CJ CAME OVER SATURDAY!! ehh i had to greatest time. i love brian so much. i am soo comfortable when i am with him. me and cj liek never hang out any more.. and liek we were close at my house. we havent been that close in a long time. and everythign jsut seemed so great. everything that used to be empty seemed full that night. i know it doesnt make sense but cjs one of my best friends.. and even though she hurt me terribly.. i still feel "safe" around her. i missed her so much.. but some tiems i wonder if i should u know? like ehh.. everyone that was there for me when i was done.. that hated the things that was goin on.. i feel liek i am hurting them by loving cj (as a friend) i dont know.. i jsut dont want any one to get hurt. i knwo what it feels liek to be hurt.. badly... and i dont want any one to feel anything liek i have felt.
i dont know if i should even write about that. i never really talk about my feelings.. well i do aout some.. but there are some feeling that i cant explain.. that ONLY lindsay and brian even know about. i dont know. i jsut dont understand me any more. i was really really lost at the beginning of the year... but then brian.. hes makin everythign so much better.. so much easier.. i love him so much!! i just.. ehh.. sometiems i dotn think i deserve him.. with all the stuff he knows.. he still loves me back!! it jsut amazes me how 2 people can know so much about 1.. and still not think one bad thign about them.. I LOVE YOU GUYS!! YOU ARE MY BESTEST FRIENDS!!
~brian and lindsay~
well i have to go.. talk to me if you understand how i feel!
ashley