We'd be the best of friends you could stay here forever
I don't know how much more of this i can handle! I was so looking foward to coming home and seeing everyone and i haven't gotten to spend any time with them and if i have i've been a total wreck plastering on a fake smile and i feel horrible about it. I've either been at the hospital or at home with my mom all the time and now i have to go to the wake tonight and the funeral tomorrow and i know i'm not going to be able to handle it. I don't want to be the one who starts crying and makes everyone else so much more upset and i know i'm going to its like i'm afraid to cry because no one is... and now its starting all over we had to bring my nana to the hospital the day after papa passed apparently she has an enlarged heart and when people have been married as long as them the other one usually passes not long after they just give up so here we go again... i just don't understand a week ago he was doing so well we were talking about the red sox getting arod and all this stuff and now he is gone and i miss him so much and i jus want him to come back i know he is in a better place but call me selfish but i want him back here acting like papa again ...