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u know wat makes me mad is when ppl say that their in a lot of pain and nobody knows how much pain their in, but do they ever stop and just talk to ppl and see how they feel and understand how much pain their in? NO!!!! it seems like everyone is in alot of pain these days. i know my family and is . My dad wont talk to my mom he hasn't talked to her in like a month! it really sux b/c he tries to be nice to us but then he is so mean to my mom. u know how in tv show or in movies how if the couple gets into a fight the girl makes the guy go sleep on the couch well, my dad makes my mom sleep on the couch! during the school year when amy is away at college she sleeps in her room but she is home for the summer so my mom is sleeping on an air mattress in the formal living room!!!!!! how can she do that u might ask well, WE HAVE NO FREAKIN FURNITURE!!!!!!!! we've had the couches in the family room ever since amy was a baby so we've had them for 19 years or maybe even before that idk! but anyway last year my mom bought new sheets for their bed b/c they had the other sheets for a really long time, she also bought curtains and window sheers and all that stuff. we just got the actuall curtain shades hung up in out rooms last year b/c my dad wouldn't get his lazy but up and put them on. the only reason he did put them up was b/c my family was coming for amy's graduation. i have one picture hanging up in my room and thats it. last year we also bought these really nice pictures to hang up in the foraml living roomand dining room, their still sitting in the plastic on the floor in the formal living. the only things in the formal living room r 2 lamps and a keyborad! and we've lived here how long.............6 years!!!! my dad is such an ass towards my mom!ever since i was little they used to have these fights and they would last for an hour or two, they would tell us to go to our rooms but mindy and i shared a room and amy had her own room. but anyway we would sneak over to amy's room and then we would all sneak into the formal dining room and we would listen to wat they were saying and it was horrible. they still do that except last time they were in the basement and my rooms is two stories directly above the basement where they were so i could hear them through the vent and i was listening to everything they were saying and it was stuff about everything and everyone! my dad has even admitted that he has no respect for my mom and i have never once in my life seen them kiss or hug eachother or anything. my dad is so mean to us when we were little and we got in trouble he would spank us so hard, we would ask him if we could go to the bathroom before he would spank us b/c he used to spank us so hard that we would pee in our pants and even though we went before we still did b/c he hit us so hard. i have even been slapped across the face by him actually twice! he left a huge hand print on my face! when mindy was in 8th grade my dad wanted us to get out of their room b/c we were talking to my mom and he wanted to go to bed well amy and i went out but mindy went into the bathroom to tell my mom something and my dad picked up the iron from the ironing board and was walking towards her telling her to get out and he says he was just playing and that he didn't really mean to burn her well the iron was hot and he touched her arm with it and then when she went back to school and her friend saw the burn on her arm she asked wat happened and she told her but and she told her not to tell anyone but she went to the guidance office and told the counselor and the counselor made her come down and talk to her and they got social services involved and they made my mom come in and talk to them and my mom had to lie to the social services ppl. if someone were to call social services again my sisters and i would be taken away from our parents. when we were younger my sisters and i b/c it was so bad we used to think about suicide and all that stuff but now we know how to deal with it. but he was so mean to us when we were little that now thats how we treat eachother b/c he used to call my mom names and say stuff about her and now thats wat my sisters and i do when were mad at eachother we call eachother names and we get so mad that we almost hit eachother, and when were older we'll probably never speak to eachother again b/c we didn't get along when we were younger. just like my mom and my ucle. my dad's family like my grandma and my aunt used to tell my mom that she should divorce him b/c he was so mean and that he would never change and obviously he hasn't but, the only reason my mom did stay with him is b/c he makes really good money. he was offered jobs in south america and russia were he would have been making even more money but he says he doesn't want to go there b/c he has a family but ya right he doesn't care about us. his newest job offer for the past few years has been to go to houston, texas, but he doesn't want to go there and niether do we. but anyway i have rambled on and on but i just need to get that out i have held that inside for way to long and i just needed to get it out. well i guess i just go back to normal eveyday life where everyone looks down on me and hates me.