Just some new thoughts
-I'm tired of analyses
-I'm sick of his love attitude
-I'm really in need of more visions of the face. I haven't had one in so long, I'm worried that I might not have one to fill anymore
-Of all of them, he was the one I wanted the most, and now that he's in trouble with his one and only, I want nothing more than to help him, to make sure he's happy. Funny how quickly my defeat changes to opportunity
-My entrance was only a 2 today, but my dismount was an 8.8
-The other jumps so quickly that I worry; I worry what so many leaps and bounds are keeping him from. I know that I want him to be okay, and anyway that he can be, I applaud; but I'm thinking long-term, not just the now
-I love them all, but I haven't found someone who I feel like I want to love, that I feel I need to love; one of those "You might not want what you get, bout you need it" moments. I think I would be able to see it if I found him....but with the face concern, I'm not sure he's even there.
-I'm doing pretty badly with my resolution for this year: I have not given enough time to me at all. Shame on me.
Lastly, I am so exhausted I can't believe it. My own show opens up this next week at Brown Bag, WSS opens in 2 weeks, and my directing project is due on Wednesday. I think once this week is over, things will be much better, but, it's the getting to that point that's the hardest part. One day. One day, I hope things will be easier.
PS- He's everything I find in myself and yearned to find manifested in someone else, except he has all my reservations as well. We feel each other out everytime we meet, and yet I haven't been able to let him go. I haven't found the need to....yet.
-I'm sick of his love attitude
-I'm really in need of more visions of the face. I haven't had one in so long, I'm worried that I might not have one to fill anymore
-Of all of them, he was the one I wanted the most, and now that he's in trouble with his one and only, I want nothing more than to help him, to make sure he's happy. Funny how quickly my defeat changes to opportunity
-My entrance was only a 2 today, but my dismount was an 8.8
-The other jumps so quickly that I worry; I worry what so many leaps and bounds are keeping him from. I know that I want him to be okay, and anyway that he can be, I applaud; but I'm thinking long-term, not just the now
-I love them all, but I haven't found someone who I feel like I want to love, that I feel I need to love; one of those "You might not want what you get, bout you need it" moments. I think I would be able to see it if I found him....but with the face concern, I'm not sure he's even there.
-I'm doing pretty badly with my resolution for this year: I have not given enough time to me at all. Shame on me.
Lastly, I am so exhausted I can't believe it. My own show opens up this next week at Brown Bag, WSS opens in 2 weeks, and my directing project is due on Wednesday. I think once this week is over, things will be much better, but, it's the getting to that point that's the hardest part. One day. One day, I hope things will be easier.
PS- He's everything I find in myself and yearned to find manifested in someone else, except he has all my reservations as well. We feel each other out everytime we meet, and yet I haven't been able to let him go. I haven't found the need to....yet.