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[sexzblonde06]

im so glad people are finally learning now maybe you can get the tiniest glimpse of what ive gone through the past couple months because of you... but i doubt it because not only was i hurt because of what you did to me but i was also hurt because of how you treated my friends and got people to dislike us because of all the many lies i almost feel bad for you because it must be a pitiful life to live with all the many lies and deceptions there are for you to keep track of changing the story one too many times or telling the wrong story to the wrong person finally caught up to you because if people have been blinded by the lies and would rather hear the more interesting story than the truth a lot of people now see the truth and now how can you expect to gain anyones trust back when everyone else for the most part is seeing eye to eye on this im probably gonna get crap for writing this too but i need to get this all out its been bottled up inside me for so long now i trusted you i believed everything youd say to me and then id hear all the shit youd say about me which lead me into talking about you just to make myself feel better and i thought it was ok for me to continue to say things about you because you did the same to me... well then i realized i was wrong i realized i dont need to do that im better than that... yes for all of you out there that dont know there IS a difference between talking about someone and talking about your problems to someone... you just assumed all along you assumed so much if you would have just asked i would have told you the truth but no the eaiser thing for you to do was to go talk more shit about me and hope i would still be nice to you and feel sorry for you ... no i dont think so im not going to give all i can so you are happy and then get nothing out of it but more lies and more trash talked about me... i have changed i used to look up to you and i wanted to be like you but i learned that one really quick when my life started to suck and i was getting the response from people that i wanted but i was getting the response in a way i didnt want... i honestly hope that you were smart enough to know that all the things you said i did hear about because you told the wrong people like you said you cant trust anyone well guess what i can because they told me the truth they watched out for me unlike you i know so many things you dont think i know and even though im not suppoussed to know them im glad i do because otherwise i could still be caught up in all the lies... im just glad now that most of the people who believed the lies now have given me a chance and have gotten to know me the real me the me youve never seen because you never gave me that chance... i hope you are happy where you have gotten yourself and i hope that soon you will learn that this is a vicious world and people are going to watch out for each other because even if they seem like they are watching out for someone else they are really watching out for themselves becuase they know that if you can treat another person like that then you are perfectly capaple of treating them the same exact way...

ok i feel much better now... and by the way this is my opinion you can agree with it or not... this my own personal experience so you can choose to hate me because of it or not but maybe the best thing for you to do would be to come and confront me about it and maybe you could get the tiniest glimplse into how i feel because this entry is quite vague...

and to 2 certain girls im very glad things have worked themselves out and im glad to have you as my friends and know that you care about me... yes weve had our differences but weve overcome them and that just makes us stronger... im glad i can trust the both of you and i miss and love you both very very much and yall need to come visit soon...