Fast forward please?
As if my life could not get any worse...
Apparently, I might be losing the ability to have children. It's been almost a year since my last period so I go in for an ultrasound Monday to see what the hell's going on. I gave away a bunch of my blood today so they could test it. I want a child so bad, the prospect of losing that ability terrifies me. I know there are other options, but who the hell is going to let me adopt a kid? Im trying not to freak out and think positive, but it's not working.
My sister's smoking crack again. So I'm stressing over my nieces well-being.
I've also been getting alot of migraines. I had a tooth pulled last week and I'm still hurting. My backs been bothering me lately.
I fucking hate my job.
I think I'm lonely, but I'm not entirely sure. There are a few guys out there trying to court me, but I can't bring myself to reciprocate anything. I like them when I'm around them, but it's painstaking for me to bring myself to make plans with them again.
My best friend Sean and his fiance recently broke up. And I feel like a horrible fucking friend for being happy about it. He's in so much pain, but I can't help but hope that maybe FINALLY this is our chance. I've loved him for so many years. But I know I'm just setting myself up for heartbreak again.
I feel so lost. And sad. And scared. And I can't stop crying.
I just want to fast forward to the end.
Apparently, I might be losing the ability to have children. It's been almost a year since my last period so I go in for an ultrasound Monday to see what the hell's going on. I gave away a bunch of my blood today so they could test it. I want a child so bad, the prospect of losing that ability terrifies me. I know there are other options, but who the hell is going to let me adopt a kid? Im trying not to freak out and think positive, but it's not working.
My sister's smoking crack again. So I'm stressing over my nieces well-being.
I've also been getting alot of migraines. I had a tooth pulled last week and I'm still hurting. My backs been bothering me lately.
I fucking hate my job.
I think I'm lonely, but I'm not entirely sure. There are a few guys out there trying to court me, but I can't bring myself to reciprocate anything. I like them when I'm around them, but it's painstaking for me to bring myself to make plans with them again.
My best friend Sean and his fiance recently broke up. And I feel like a horrible fucking friend for being happy about it. He's in so much pain, but I can't help but hope that maybe FINALLY this is our chance. I've loved him for so many years. But I know I'm just setting myself up for heartbreak again.
I feel so lost. And sad. And scared. And I can't stop crying.
I just want to fast forward to the end.