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HOLY SHIT ALOT HAS GONE ON IN THE PAST COUPLE WEEKS!!!
First, Jeremy and I broke up the 16 of this month. It was a mutual agreement but I still shouldnt of even said nething to him about breaking up becuz now I'm more miserable than ever...
Well, we took pictures of Katelyn, Me, and Jeremy last Friday. JEREMY WASNT EVEN SMILING! Even he said he looks unhappy. The way things are going between us, it sure seems like hes unhappy.
Jeremy and I were talkin on the phone a few nights ago and he asked me back out. I seriously thought he was pulling my leg so I said "No". If I would have known he was being serious, I would have said "Yes". I want to be with him so badly that it hurts every time I'm on the phone with him, I see him or even think about him. Just knowing he's not mine nemore, breaks my heart in a million pieces. I know we always fought and thats mainly why we broke up, but I cant help it. I have to know he's mine and that no other female is talkin to him, touchin him or nething. He's supposed to be going out tomorrow night with Mike but if I dont go out tonight, I'm going out tomorrow night and he's stayin home with Katelyn, whether he likes it or not. He never fuckin spends time with her when he comes home from college. He's always out... You should of heard the voice mail Mike left him early this morning... talking about how he has 4 sentences writen on his body from females and thats gonna be Jeremy when he goes out tomorrow night! FUCK THAT! I dont even understand how Mike would put Jeremy in that type of predicament. Mike knows hes a fucking father and loves both of us. Jeremy told me he wasnt lookin for another female but after listening to Mike's voice mail, its kinda hard to believe half the shit hes been telling me. Also, you wouldnt believe how mean and cruel hes been to me. I dont even know what I did. I've been trying so hard to talk to him and be as nice as possible and he doesnt even care about nething but himself. I bet you, when I tell him that I'm not going out tonight but tomorrow night, he'll throw a complete fit and get all pissed off at me. If he really cared about spending time with Katelyn, then he wouldnt be worried about what day he goes out. I was thinking about changing Katelyn's last name. Not taking his off, just adding mine on. He fucking threw a fit and got all pissy and said if I changed it then were never gonna go back out. Thats bullshit. I have a right to do w/e I want. I'm the only one who signed the damn birth certificate! He said, "Oh, I'll sign it when I get out of school." NO! YOU SHOULDNT OF FUCKING SIGNED IT IN THE HOSPITAL WHEN SHE WAS FIRST BORN!!! He thinks that if hes signs it, I'm gonna take money from him. First of all, I'm not that type of person. Second of all, I'm living in his damn house. Come on. Have some sense! Everyone knows I'm not that mean.
Well, Jeremy is home. I', gonna get goin. Bye.
<3 Mel
First, Jeremy and I broke up the 16 of this month. It was a mutual agreement but I still shouldnt of even said nething to him about breaking up becuz now I'm more miserable than ever...
Well, we took pictures of Katelyn, Me, and Jeremy last Friday. JEREMY WASNT EVEN SMILING! Even he said he looks unhappy. The way things are going between us, it sure seems like hes unhappy.
Jeremy and I were talkin on the phone a few nights ago and he asked me back out. I seriously thought he was pulling my leg so I said "No". If I would have known he was being serious, I would have said "Yes". I want to be with him so badly that it hurts every time I'm on the phone with him, I see him or even think about him. Just knowing he's not mine nemore, breaks my heart in a million pieces. I know we always fought and thats mainly why we broke up, but I cant help it. I have to know he's mine and that no other female is talkin to him, touchin him or nething. He's supposed to be going out tomorrow night with Mike but if I dont go out tonight, I'm going out tomorrow night and he's stayin home with Katelyn, whether he likes it or not. He never fuckin spends time with her when he comes home from college. He's always out... You should of heard the voice mail Mike left him early this morning... talking about how he has 4 sentences writen on his body from females and thats gonna be Jeremy when he goes out tomorrow night! FUCK THAT! I dont even understand how Mike would put Jeremy in that type of predicament. Mike knows hes a fucking father and loves both of us. Jeremy told me he wasnt lookin for another female but after listening to Mike's voice mail, its kinda hard to believe half the shit hes been telling me. Also, you wouldnt believe how mean and cruel hes been to me. I dont even know what I did. I've been trying so hard to talk to him and be as nice as possible and he doesnt even care about nething but himself. I bet you, when I tell him that I'm not going out tonight but tomorrow night, he'll throw a complete fit and get all pissed off at me. If he really cared about spending time with Katelyn, then he wouldnt be worried about what day he goes out. I was thinking about changing Katelyn's last name. Not taking his off, just adding mine on. He fucking threw a fit and got all pissy and said if I changed it then were never gonna go back out. Thats bullshit. I have a right to do w/e I want. I'm the only one who signed the damn birth certificate! He said, "Oh, I'll sign it when I get out of school." NO! YOU SHOULDNT OF FUCKING SIGNED IT IN THE HOSPITAL WHEN SHE WAS FIRST BORN!!! He thinks that if hes signs it, I'm gonna take money from him. First of all, I'm not that type of person. Second of all, I'm living in his damn house. Come on. Have some sense! Everyone knows I'm not that mean.
Well, Jeremy is home. I', gonna get goin. Bye.
<3 Mel