and while you're out there getting where you're getting to, I hope you know somebody loves you...
Acceptance.
Yea, I've accepted everything. Things happen for a reason and yes, I knew that before but sometimes it's hard to see why things happen. I know now that you can't always plan for what life is going to throw at you. There's always going to be a twist. It's like one of those movies where you think you have it all figure out that all of a sudden something unexpected happens and it throws your entire thought process off track to try and figure it out again.
I don't know what exactly is going to happen in the next few months, but that's the beauty of it. I'm going to make the most of the next few months and then deal with it when the time comes because I shouldn't dwell on the bad part of this when everything else about it is great. I'm happy for you. Congratulations. I don' t think I've said that yet. But I'm happy for you, really.
So in all this ciaos, I've pushed a lot of people away, but what I've found is that the ones that you push away and they keep persisting to the point of they are still around - that's something. Those are the people who truly care, who understand that you need to talk and are willing and are there for you at 4am in needed. And I want to thank those people. You are the ones who made me realize that this is a good thing - despite it not being planned.
Now I'm starting to get excited - although you'll never know if by the way I'm acting because I don't want you to see it - because that actually means it's happening. Having the past few days off to actually think and pick myself back up and get back on track of "doing what's best for me" is really making me realize what is or isn't a part of my life. I'm going to start putting the rest of the puzzle back together. And it's going to be great.
"Keep smiling... it makes people wonder what you've been up to."
Yea, I've accepted everything. Things happen for a reason and yes, I knew that before but sometimes it's hard to see why things happen. I know now that you can't always plan for what life is going to throw at you. There's always going to be a twist. It's like one of those movies where you think you have it all figure out that all of a sudden something unexpected happens and it throws your entire thought process off track to try and figure it out again.
I don't know what exactly is going to happen in the next few months, but that's the beauty of it. I'm going to make the most of the next few months and then deal with it when the time comes because I shouldn't dwell on the bad part of this when everything else about it is great. I'm happy for you. Congratulations. I don' t think I've said that yet. But I'm happy for you, really.
So in all this ciaos, I've pushed a lot of people away, but what I've found is that the ones that you push away and they keep persisting to the point of they are still around - that's something. Those are the people who truly care, who understand that you need to talk and are willing and are there for you at 4am in needed. And I want to thank those people. You are the ones who made me realize that this is a good thing - despite it not being planned.
Now I'm starting to get excited - although you'll never know if by the way I'm acting because I don't want you to see it - because that actually means it's happening. Having the past few days off to actually think and pick myself back up and get back on track of "doing what's best for me" is really making me realize what is or isn't a part of my life. I'm going to start putting the rest of the puzzle back together. And it's going to be great.
"Keep smiling... it makes people wonder what you've been up to."