fuck life
why is it that hating someone just makes you want them even more....
ive been doing so good. i mean yea he still crosses mind, i cant just totally erase him from it all together...but tonight has just been bad. i hate seeing cute couples...im so sick of being alone, but its not like i can just be with anyone. people dont understand that i mean yea i kno i say i just dont want to be alone but i cant just go pick upi some random person. i want more then that. i kno what i want, where im going in life, and who i want to share that with. im not saying that were meant to be, or that theres no other guys out there...im just saying that right now i want to share the things in my life with him. but were hardly on the talking wave length.
i dont understand what is so wrong with me. when i go over it in my head nothing makes sense. and i would just agree to the fact that nothing is wrong with me but if you look at the facts, i am the problem. i just dont know whats wrong with me.
and i thought i was doing good. going back to pushing it all in the back. hoping it doesnt stir up again. it will prolly only hurt me more to do it that way. but it seems like its the only solution.
Meagan Amber
ive been doing so good. i mean yea he still crosses mind, i cant just totally erase him from it all together...but tonight has just been bad. i hate seeing cute couples...im so sick of being alone, but its not like i can just be with anyone. people dont understand that i mean yea i kno i say i just dont want to be alone but i cant just go pick upi some random person. i want more then that. i kno what i want, where im going in life, and who i want to share that with. im not saying that were meant to be, or that theres no other guys out there...im just saying that right now i want to share the things in my life with him. but were hardly on the talking wave length.
i dont understand what is so wrong with me. when i go over it in my head nothing makes sense. and i would just agree to the fact that nothing is wrong with me but if you look at the facts, i am the problem. i just dont know whats wrong with me.
and i thought i was doing good. going back to pushing it all in the back. hoping it doesnt stir up again. it will prolly only hurt me more to do it that way. but it seems like its the only solution.
Meagan Amber