...dont you wish you were dead like me...
I have a lot to talk about. I think I may make this friends only though. We'll see.
On Sunday my car was broken into. The person attempted to steal my C.D player... they only got the faceplate and mangaged to rip off my dash. Awesome, I know.
Anyway, thats nothing compared to what else Im dealing with right now. Me and Jon arent working very well. We both arent sure whats wrong, we just arent connecting like we used to. Im of course more than ready to blame myself because thats the way I am, but I am pretty certain Im really not to blame; neither of us is at fault here. Its a combination of me working and his arm not being, well, functionable [if thats even a word]. I work till at least 9 four days a week and during the day. He works during the day also. So at night he just comes over and we watch a movie b/c, well, what else is there to do? On the days I dont work at night we do hang out during the day, but its the same old same old. Last night we changed it up a bit: we went to an Indians game. That wasnt very good at all. His friend Tom was with us and them two pretty much talked baseball the whole time. I know I could have added into the conversation, but Ididnt really feel like it. I just couldnt add anything in most of the time, so I just was quiet. Jon knew something was wrong. We talked about it later and he mentioned the fact we arent getting along. I agreed. We talked about everything going wrong but we really didnt have any solutions. I pray to God all we needed was to voice our opinions on what was going on and thats all that was wrong. Somehow though, in the back of my mind, I dont think thats it.
Ive never been this close to anyone ever. Not even Cory. With Jon Im myself. He knows all my fears. He knows my goals in life. He is my best friend. I dont know where Id be without him. I cant lose him. Im going to try my hardest to get us back to where we were. I hope this works out.