im ranting... and it feels awesome

[sexyshortcake72]

um not much going on. im kinda depressed, actually. im really really really really really really sick of working at hoggys. like i love the people there to death but i hate the fact when i get home i can barely walk. i also hate the fact i work wed-sat nights. i dont see jon enough. on weeknights we hang out for like an hour at a time. weekends arent much better. the only day i can see him for more than three hours at a time is sunday. i guess once his fb practice for his allstar game [[which is this friday people!!]] i'll see him more monday and tuesday nights because i dont work those nights at hoggys. oh and wanna know what else im gnna get all pissed about?? i start work at padua this wed. that means i work 2 jobs on wed, thurs. and friday. padua from 7-1.. then hoggys from 4- 9ish. great. 11 hour work days. JUST what i need. and all my parents can say to this is "you'll earn good money!". dont they realize i dont give a shit about the money right now?? i make plenty of money at hoggys, i dont need another job. im gnna be so tired and it sucks. i thought this summer would ROCK, but so far ive spent my days at home waiting for jon [[granted some days i do hang out with ppl]] or waiting for work. and i cant be mad at jon for working during the days till 5. he really needs the money... but i just wish we could hang out during the day and go to the beach or something. take a walk in the park.. anything. but nope, we're stuck just chilling at my house from like 10-11 everynight doing nothing because we're both too tired. dont get me wrong, things between us are great, ive never been happier with anyone before, but i just wanna see him more often. i know we'll be fine and this wont come between us.. but i cant help thinking "what if".
ok i just re-read that and im such a dramaqueen.