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I haven't really written in a while. I really don't plan to say much. I have 4 days of school left. And it looks like I have some major support from the Kindergarten staff if I want to apply for a Kindergarten position there next year. I'm really not sure yet because it would mean moving back to Fort or Whitewater, but when it comes down to it, a job is a job and I actually really do like the environment at the school I'm at. So I don't know. In other news I've been working to get out, well online still so far actually, and meet some people. Because in about a month it will be a year since the shit hit the fan and I shouldn't have to feel guilty about being with someone, especially when he's planning trips to London for one year anniversaries. I'm back at home right now and it's hard. My older sister has been going through some shit and she recently made a decision that I think is probably one of the worst of her life. But it's hers to make and I can't stop her. Only be there to support her through it all. As time goes by I should be feeling better and my heart should be healing but it seems that with time I only get angrier. As each day passes and more of the things Dave told me turn out to be untrue I can't help but feel angry. I don't know what I'm hoping for by continuing this "friendship" because I really don't see anything left in it. How do I know when it's just time to call it quits? I should be in bed already. Goodnight.