I wrote a suicide note, your name was included, not as my reason, but as my s o l u t i o n
So the tittle of this journal was in my agenda, along with other quotes in such... wellllp I had to write down next weeks homework. My teacher came around to check it and stopped, stared, and read that... then she looked at me so weird. I was just kinda like... whhhaaattttt. She didn't say anything to me though so no big deal. 2nd hour we put our digestive system together! oh what fun. I'm standing there cutting duct tape and I look at Dave and he's like "heyyyy" then he like winks, and pretends to blow a kiss and nods his head and everything. lol well I started laughing and he's like "you laughing at the p.i.m.p!?" and i'm like "stop it, youre acting weird" and he's like "i cant help it baby, im always weird" and he did some weird thing where he like hits his chest...ohwell though i just called him a freak and continued my work. In math I had to hurry but I wrote Nick a letter! YAY! I really did it! I don't think I'm gonna send it though, I re-read it a lil while ago and I seem really strange... haha like im not already. BUT YEAH if anybody else was to get ahold of it and read it they'd be like O_O youre ghey. and id be like yeah i know :[. LUNCH people were SNIFFING SHARPEES! I didn't think it was real... or I mean, that they were really doing it... but they were!!!!!!! WOW there lyke SO KOOL! THEY EFFIN ROXXXX! Faggots. no, your not cool. Youre dumb. That's what you are stupid. Idc either, I'm judgin you. That's so retarted. you dont even get high off markers, all your doing is killing braincells. In biology leah was like "ive had a really bad week and thats why I did it" thats really not an excuse... because you had a bad week your gonna kill brain cells on purpose? Oh wow smart idea there. Yeah your cool. not. Whatever though. Leahs gonna give me her sex book too :-p. ALEX! Is like sooooo awesome. haha I did my paper all wrong and she marked it right for me and i was just like wow you didnt have to do that, and she gave me her crossword... she said i was the only one she really didnt mind taking it because she trusts me =o! :D! lol all we do is laugh, she's fun to be around. We were laughing about when shawna put this joker looking pen in her hair... and i was like "I like your stick." haha ohwell though. She was telling me how her n her boyfriend are gonna get married, and she's making him grow out his hair, and how he does her homework,. lol her boyfriend is like whipped.. like SERIOUSLY whipped... not kidding whipped... just WHIPPED! anyways history and spanish suck. my parents are mad at me cause i basically got all A's and then a C- in spanish... yeah I know... basically a D+. I used to be so good, but I hate it so much. Idc about it, i don't wanna learn it... I don't even wanna try. Nobody will let me drop it though... :[. i'm gonna start trying i guess... going against my will.
I came home, went to sleep, and woke up at around 6:30. I don't get enough sleep... Ben misses me... so after i just did homework and talked to angela... yep yep what a life I lead. Over the weekend I have to start my family tree and emily bronte poster... i really dont like school >_<
Sense on the half day i didnt get all ready and pretty and stuff I'm supposed to tomorrow. I guess im hideous without makeup cause Liz goes "I miss your beautiful face" pssshhh whatever. Don't like me this way, you shouldnt like me the other way.
You know your an internet-a-holic when you dream about being online. dream #2. lol how pathetic.