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wow, i just had a short convo with my mom about money....
she told me she felt bad that none of my graduation money (about $6-700) went to me... all went to car insurance... and i still owe $450... and then i thought about it... and dang... it does kinda suck. like, i pay for everything during the summer from food, clothes, gas, insurance, phone, and lil things here and there with friends...just to not make enough for anything else. lol, stupid me. i thought i was gonna get myself and my bro an ipod and i thought i would be able to get my car a cd player/radio. lol.
i know it seems i complain a lot on here, but i only fill this thing with thoughts. i dont keep a written diary, so... this is just for me to keep track of how i feel about things.
i mean... is it wrong that i didnt let any of my graduation money go to anything i wanted? but rather to something that is just a bother of a necessity especially since driving on campus and in waco is like... a joke when it comes to danger? oh... and i need a tuneup and my brakes are makin a funny noise........and im too afraid to say anything before summer ends cuz i really really dont wanna have to be told to come up with the money... damn... i hate fuckin growing up. it seems like just yesterday i couldnt wait for 5 years just so i could say i was 15. and now i am honestly kinda stallin to move into my cousin's house becuz its so weird to me... (even though i desparately need out to be on my own). iono. who knows anymore.
there is so much to life. too many people are sick right now that i care about and...i am worried about how i wont have enough money to get myself some new jeans for my fat butt. not only do i need to start focussing on the finer things in life... but i also need to lose weight so i dont have to get jeans for my fat ass.
i guess nuf said. meh. i work tomorrow for a friend. im going straight after church... i need to go to church....i love jesus.
~V
she told me she felt bad that none of my graduation money (about $6-700) went to me... all went to car insurance... and i still owe $450... and then i thought about it... and dang... it does kinda suck. like, i pay for everything during the summer from food, clothes, gas, insurance, phone, and lil things here and there with friends...just to not make enough for anything else. lol, stupid me. i thought i was gonna get myself and my bro an ipod and i thought i would be able to get my car a cd player/radio. lol.
i know it seems i complain a lot on here, but i only fill this thing with thoughts. i dont keep a written diary, so... this is just for me to keep track of how i feel about things.
i mean... is it wrong that i didnt let any of my graduation money go to anything i wanted? but rather to something that is just a bother of a necessity especially since driving on campus and in waco is like... a joke when it comes to danger? oh... and i need a tuneup and my brakes are makin a funny noise........and im too afraid to say anything before summer ends cuz i really really dont wanna have to be told to come up with the money... damn... i hate fuckin growing up. it seems like just yesterday i couldnt wait for 5 years just so i could say i was 15. and now i am honestly kinda stallin to move into my cousin's house becuz its so weird to me... (even though i desparately need out to be on my own). iono. who knows anymore.
there is so much to life. too many people are sick right now that i care about and...i am worried about how i wont have enough money to get myself some new jeans for my fat butt. not only do i need to start focussing on the finer things in life... but i also need to lose weight so i dont have to get jeans for my fat ass.
i guess nuf said. meh. i work tomorrow for a friend. im going straight after church... i need to go to church....i love jesus.
~V