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so my friends need to move home from college.
i need to start working & going to school again.
and by working i mean i need to find a new job immediatly.
also i need to grow some balls sooner or later. only because it is going to keep driving me up a wall even more or just make the situation worse. which im not sure things couod go anymore down hill then they are now but im sure they wont get much better cause im pretty sure he hates me and doesnt want to look at me let alone have an actual converstation with me. but i mean being cooped up at home for an entire month (this coming weds) really makes you think about a lot of things. as well as what ifs and stuff. and its made me regret a lot of things. but then again i wish i could go back to fix things. or preferbly id love to go back to like this time last year i think.. no maybe like around thanksgiving. and change things.
anyways i wish anklur would come back cause i was tlaking to him cause i mean we're the only two people around on a saturday night cause this is the lamest town ever, and i wish i went to school somewhere. anywhere but in this state. i wish i could go to like cali or something but id be wayy to homesick and i dont want to go and not be with atleast one person i know. im not good with that stuff. i think i am going to try and go back to school on monday. if not im going to be so lost and so behind. and i just dont want that. i wish someone could drive me cause i dn if i can actually drive. i think i am going to get a temp handicapped thing. haha cause i suck at walking and im handicapped.woohooo
What is your name?: Amanda Marie Bradley!
Are you named after anyone?: no, i dont think so
What's your screename?: abraddd147
Would you name a child of yours after you?: nah.
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: anthony or nicholas.
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: not sure. i guess im content with my name.
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name?: my name is pretty easy.
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: yes
Basics
Your gender:: female
Straight/Gay/Bi:: straight
Single?: yes
If not, do you want to be?:
Birthdate:: january 10t
Your age:: 19
Age you act:: it depends. hehe
Age you wish you were:: 21
Your height:: 5'3
Eye color:: brown
Happy with it?: its okay.. when i am not happy with it i just throw in my blue contacts :o)
Hair color:: brown
Happy with it?: yeah
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:: righty
Your living arrangement:: mom dad alyssa
Your family:: ^
Have any pets?: misty
Whats your job?: sears.
Piercings?: bellybutton and ears
Tattoos?: nope
Obsessions?: no
Addictions?: getting my nails done & tanning
Do you speak another language?: nope
Have a favorite quote?: everything happens for a reason.
Do you have a webpage?: i have a myspace & facebook.
Deep Thoughts About Life?: not really
Do you live in the moment?:i try to. i havent recently.
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: i used to be. not so much anymore.
Do you have any secrets?: everyone does.
Do you hate yourself?: i guess not
Do you like your handwriting?: its alright
Do you have any bad habits?: ehh not really.
What is the compliment you get from most people?: nothing really.
What's your biggest fear?: death
Can you sing?: nope but i like to
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: nope
Are you a loner?: nope
What are your priorities in life?: college.
Are you a daredevil?: sometimes
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: my broken knee. haha
Are you passive or agressive?: both sometimes depends
Do you have a journal?: livejournal
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: i suck at confronting people.
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: im not sure.
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: i guess so.
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: im sure we all do, but im sure at that time its what i wanted to do. but yes.. i do have a handful of regrets.
Do you think life has been good so far?: its alright
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: you only live once.
What do you like the most about your body?: my knee that looks like a watermelon.. haha not.
Do you think you are good looking?: not really
Are you confident?: not really.
What is the fictional character you are most like?: i have no idea.
Are you perceived wrongly?: i think sometimes
Do You...
Smoke?: no
Do drugs?: no
Read the newspaper?: sometimes
Pray?: for my cousin, yes. <3
Go to church?: no
Talk to strangers who IM you?: strangers dont really IM me.
Sleep with stuffed animals?: no
Take walks in the rain?: nope. id like to.
Talk to people even though you hate them?: i'll be considerate but not fake.
Drive?: mhmm and i <3 my stang!! esp in the summmmmertimeee :o)
Like to drive fast?: not so much anymore.
Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?: no
Hurt yourself?: no
Been out of the country?: canada, bahamas, bermuda, tortola & st thomas.
Eaten something that made other people sick?:probably.
Been in love?: no
Done drugs?: no
Gone skinny dipping?: nope
Had a medical emergency?: nope
Had surgery?: yup.. damn knee :o(
Ran away from home?: no
Played strip poker?: yes
Been picked on?: jimmy is the worst.
Been on stage?: yeah, i danced for 15 years,
Slept outdoors?: believe it or not, ive been camping.
Thought about suicide?: nope
Pulled an all nighter?: many times! :o)
If yes, what is your record?: i'mnot really sure, i dont keep track.
Gone one day without food?: never
Talked on the phone all night?: yeah
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: yup
Killed someone?: umm no.
Made out with a stranger?: no
Had sex with a stranger?: yes.
Thought you're going crazy?: i am, ive been home for 4 weeks straight.
Kissed the same sex?: yes, but ive never made out with the same sex. haha
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: no
Been betrayed?: yeah
Had a dream that came true?: i do alot.
Broken the law?: yeah
Met a famous person?: yuppp
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: a skunk haha
On purpose?:
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: probably. but not to intentionally hurt anyone
Stolen anything?: nope
Been on radio/tv?: yeah
Been in a mosh-pit?: no
Had a nervous breakdown?: nope
Bungee jumped?: no
Had a dream that kept coming back?: yah
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?: no
Miracles?: yes
Astrology?: yes
Magic?: no
God?: yes
Satan?: no
Santa?: not really..
Ghosts?: yes
Luck?: yes
Love at first sight?: yes.
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: yes
Witches?: yeah
Easter bunny?: no
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: no
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?:yes
Do you wish on stars?: sometimes
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: yes
Do you think God has a gender?: yes
Do you believe in organized religion?: yes,
Where do you think we go when we die?: dont want to thik about it
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: yes
Who is your best friend?: haley
Who's the one person that knows most about you?:haley
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: probably something jimmy has told me.
Your favourite inside joke?: im not sure.
Thing you're picked on most about?: i should probably think before is speak.
Who's your longest known friend?: lindsey, corinna & katie.
Newest?: amanda & gina & steph
Shyest?: my friends are far from shy.
Funniest?: corinna & nicole
Sweetest?: haley & katie
Closest?: haley
Weirdest?: lindsey <3 jk . haha
Smartest?: haley & michaela
Ditziest?: LINDSEY
Friends you miss being close to the most?: shauna lee sullivan
Last person you talked to online?: ankur
Who do you talk to most online?: jimmmmy
Who are you on the phone with most?: sarah or katie :O)
Who do you trust most?: haley lindsey and katie
Who listens to your problems?: haley lindsey &katie
Who do you fight most with?: jimmy. but its not legit.
Who's the nicest?: they're all nice.
Who's the most outgoing?: lindsey & michaela
Who's the best singer?: colin josephhhhh
Who's on your shit-list?: im sure you know who it is..
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: yuppp
Who's your second family?: webbs.
Do you always feel understood?: nopee
Who's the loudest friend?: corinna or michaela
Do you trust others easily?: not really, i like to think i can then i realize i cant.
Who's house were you last at?: allisons
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: im not sure anymore..
Do your friends know you?: i guess so.
Friend that lives farthest away:: christian lives in washington..
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?: nope
What do you find romantic?: horse and carraige rides ;o) hehe.. um i dont know. hahah
Turn-on?: arms, personality.
Turn-off?: long hair & smoking
First kiss?: paul
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?: awkward
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going: knowing them
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable for a girl to ask a guy out: absolutely.
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive: eh.. i think eveyrone is physically attractive in their own way. it really depends on who they are and how you feel.
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: nah
What is best about the opposite sex?: less drama.
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: they never seem to grow up.
What's the last present someone gave you?: not sure
Are you in love?: no
Do you consider your significant other hot?:
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?: i dont know.
You wanted to kill? I cant say
That you laughed at?: lindsey
That laughed at you?: lindsey
That turned you on?:joey, i guess.
You went shopping with?: lindsey!
To disappoint you?: joey
To ask you out?: kevinnn
To brighten up your day?: lindsey
That you thought about?: joey & lindsey & jimmy
You saw a movie with?: jimmy
You talked to on the phone?: justin
You talked to through IM/ICQ?: ankur
You saw?: lindsey
You lost?: my grandfather
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?:nope i cant. im a gimp
Will it be with your significant other?: i wish
Or some random person?: acually yeah
What are you wearing right now?: shorts and sweatshirt
Body part you're touching right now:: none
What are you worried about right now?: my kneee
What book are you reading?: nicole richies book.
What's on your mousepad?: i m on my laptop
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling:: sore, tired, annoyed, anxious, hungry
Are you bored?: always recently. haha
Are you tired?: kind of.
Are you talking to anyone online?:nope
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: nope
Are you lonely or content?: lonely
Are you listening to music?: one republic