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something's wrong....
something's very wrong.....
and it's all in my head...... that makes it even worse..... cause it's already hard enough for me to communicate what IS in there and now the stuff that IS in there doesn't even make sense to me...... so how is anyone else gonna help me out??? every day has it's own unique level of depression.... and there's always the same feeling(it never changes) i think it's anxiety...... i'm a fuckin' wreck.... i won't deny it..... people ask me what my problem is now, ask me if i'm bi-polar..... i dont fuckin' know do i look like a fucking doctor..... if i just smoke some pot things feel better.... i'm not paranoid, my neck doesnt ache, my stomach doesn't hurt, i can eat, sleep, enjoy myself a bit more.... and if i'm not smokin' then i'm playing this stupid game, it's absolutley pointless.... just keeps me occupied and lost in a world that isnt my reality...... i hate my friends and i hate myself...... except kyle.... he's the only one that doesnt do stupid, gay shit to piss me off.....
something's very wrong.....
and it's all in my head...... that makes it even worse..... cause it's already hard enough for me to communicate what IS in there and now the stuff that IS in there doesn't even make sense to me...... so how is anyone else gonna help me out??? every day has it's own unique level of depression.... and there's always the same feeling(it never changes) i think it's anxiety...... i'm a fuckin' wreck.... i won't deny it..... people ask me what my problem is now, ask me if i'm bi-polar..... i dont fuckin' know do i look like a fucking doctor..... if i just smoke some pot things feel better.... i'm not paranoid, my neck doesnt ache, my stomach doesn't hurt, i can eat, sleep, enjoy myself a bit more.... and if i'm not smokin' then i'm playing this stupid game, it's absolutley pointless.... just keeps me occupied and lost in a world that isnt my reality...... i hate my friends and i hate myself...... except kyle.... he's the only one that doesnt do stupid, gay shit to piss me off.....