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Ive felt so powerless and meaningless lately...Right now im like crying and i hate crying. Im not even sure why im crying... FUCK. JUST GET ME OUT OF HERE. I just want to be away. FAR FAR AWAY. Ive been in such a horible mood and im trying to not show it cause people just get pised off at me and then things just get worst. So im sorry if im being a total bitch to anyone its just having a horible time.
You say your so proud of me but you dont have any idea how many times ive come so close to doing anything...Its just so hard not to...Its just easier to go the wrong way and not care. I hate careing about what people say and think about me, because then i end up like this. and i hate being like this.
I hate how much i like you and you barley know i ever exist. I mean we do talk from time to time but..I want you to notice me more. and possibley mabey even like me? I know thats too far out. Wow i sound like such a littel girl. but its killing me how you dont notice me!! Even though I know i dont have a shot, i just.....i dunno...
Last year I knew waht i wanted to do with my life, I had everyhting planed out and everything had a place, and now everything is mixed up, out of place ad im scared. I dont know what to do...
I know this is alot of complaining but oh well you didnt have to read this.
You say your so proud of me but you dont have any idea how many times ive come so close to doing anything...Its just so hard not to...Its just easier to go the wrong way and not care. I hate careing about what people say and think about me, because then i end up like this. and i hate being like this.
I hate how much i like you and you barley know i ever exist. I mean we do talk from time to time but..I want you to notice me more. and possibley mabey even like me? I know thats too far out. Wow i sound like such a littel girl. but its killing me how you dont notice me!! Even though I know i dont have a shot, i just.....i dunno...
Last year I knew waht i wanted to do with my life, I had everyhting planed out and everything had a place, and now everything is mixed up, out of place ad im scared. I dont know what to do...
I know this is alot of complaining but oh well you didnt have to read this.