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I usually only post on my WI days, but I had a major NSV tonight! I have this really pretty black dress that I bought a few years ago thinking it could be my 'little black dress.' It's a size 14 so I was a bit smaller and I remember thinking (when I tried it on) that it made me look REALLY good, and a lot slimmer than I felt. I try this dress on every few months when Jonathan and I are planning to go out thinking,"Oh, I can wear my little black dress because I feel pretty in it." Sadly, I haven't been able to fit in it for about 2 years. I think the last 5 or 6 times I've tried it on, I knew before I even got it on all the way that it wouldn't fit...and I felt utterly hopeless and disgusting because this was the dress that actually made me look GOOD! Anyway the other day I got these really sexy shoes from Nine West, so tonight I was going through my closet trying to find the perfect outfit for them...and I came to the infamous little black dress. I tried it on a month ago and I couldn't even zip it up halfway so I was expecting the same to happen this time. Nevertheless, I try it on again...and to my amazement- IT FITS! Not only that- It's sort of baggy, and the most important thing- I LOOK FREAKING SEXY IN IT! yay! I was strutting my stuff all over the house tonight wearing the dress and the shoes and my mom and Jonathan gave me 'the stare' that people used to give me when I felt pretty. (Actually, I've never felt pretty...my mom has had me on diets since I was in 4th grade even when I wasn't fat at all...but that's another story.) I did used to look good though (I just always thought I could be better), and one thing I've noticed since gaining weight is that people don't look at me the same anymore. People did used to stare at me and I knew they were thinking, "she looks good." I remember being so sad when I finally got better from being bedridden because I'd go out, and no one would look at me...it was like I blended in. Actually, I have a quite obese professor who seems to favor the rather overweight girls in her classes as opposed to the anorexic ones, so I suppose my weight issues have probably helped me a little bit in this case haha. But anyway, Jonathan saw me in the dress tonight and immediately focused his attention on me (He was like, "wow!")...and we danced and we kissed...and I felt BEAUTIFUL. :)
I've been meaning to do this...perhaps I won't be so sad when I gain on the scale if I can track my inches! (I've been getting measured while I shop for wedding dresses and although I've never written my measurements down when they measure me, I know that these numbers are a lot lower than they were a few months ago because I used to be a size 18 in Maggie Sottero, and now I'm a size 16 --and wedding dresses run 2-3 sizes too small usually!!!! yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
neck: 15"
bust: 43"
waist: 38"
hips: 45"
bicep: 13"
forearm: 11"
thigh: 25"
calf: 16.5"
I've been meaning to do this...perhaps I won't be so sad when I gain on the scale if I can track my inches! (I've been getting measured while I shop for wedding dresses and although I've never written my measurements down when they measure me, I know that these numbers are a lot lower than they were a few months ago because I used to be a size 18 in Maggie Sottero, and now I'm a size 16 --and wedding dresses run 2-3 sizes too small usually!!!! yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
neck: 15"
bust: 43"
waist: 38"
hips: 45"
bicep: 13"
forearm: 11"
thigh: 25"
calf: 16.5"