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I am so incredibly irritable right now...It seems like EVERYTHING is pissing me off right now...I can't stand guys...They are so incredibly disgusting and perverted...The saying is true...The people that want you you don't want and the people that you want don't want you...All of these creepy ass guys send me messages on facebook and myspace...Like REALLY OLD guys...Or just disgusting ugly people that are definitely not my type...Like what the hell...It's so frusturating I hate how guys think that if they talk dirty to you that you will be interested...I don't want to sit here and be complimented and asked for sex and shit...It gets OLD...It's so fucking frusturating...I can't stand guys they are all after only ONE thing and I hate it...I really want a boyfriend right now, but at the rate all the guys are going I'm definitely not interested in anyone...There's only one guy that I would date right now but he's too cool for someone like me...He never flat out said it but he beats around the bush and is a total asshole so whatever I'm over it...Fuck you buddy you don't know what you're missing out on...Anyways school is a fucking joke...I hate it...I hate all my classes now and I hate most of the people in my classes...I think that part of my hatred is the fact that I have no idea what I want to do anymore...I realized that it's my aunt telling me to be a doctor and that I was only studying Biology because of her...It's not what I want to do...I'd rather be a detective or in the FBI or something...That's so much more me...I would like to be a vet at a zoo though I think that would be pretty cool...But I don't know I'm sick of her trying to do what she wants through me it seems like she's living through me while attempting to control every aspect of my life as well...It is getting so irritating...She really knows how to push my buttons though...The trip to California comes with a price of course...I have to listen to her tell me to "mind my manners" and "behave myself" and all sorts of shit...I hate how she talks down to me...It's none of her business half of the things that I do...She acts like she's some sort of parent...When she's NOT...Just because she controls my freaking money she thinks that she can control my life...Well listen up when I turn 21 and I can have that money I'm fucking taking it and you're not going to be able to control SHIT after that...She really can't control much anymore...She seriously acts like I'm 12 years old and it's so frusturating...I'm 19 years old and she acts like I'm 12...I'm not a little kid...I seriously can't stand control freaks like Debbie dammit...I can't wait til this vacation I leave tomorrow and I couldn't be more ready...I'm also sick of psycho bitches blowing up my phone and sending me text messages...She is SOOO uneducated and ignorant...I sent her a text message and she calls me back and leaves me a voicemail that has nothing to do with what I sent her but she truly thinks it relates...It appears that she is reading her text messages with her feet...Her newest thing now is calling me on private and not making a single sound when I answer the phone...That's real mature..NOT!...I wish she would just grow up or come up here so I can beat the fuck out of her...She's been telling me she's going to beat my ass...I'd really love to see her try..If it's not one of her fucking delusions that she's going to come to school her next semester and she really and truly does which is doubtful I will beat the fuck out of her if she tries to fight me...It will put her in her fucking place and maybe teach her a lesson about being a fucking psycho...EVERYTHING is so stressful right now I seriously just want to go and live out in Cali right now and never come back here...Michigan blows ass!