WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?
I HAVE NO CLUE WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME BUT I KNOW I DON'T LIKE IT AT ALL!!! I AM MOODY ALL THE TIME AND I HAVE MAJOR MOOD SWINGS... I AM SURPRISED THAT CHRIS PUTS UP WITH ME! I MEAN I KNOW HE LOVES ME BUT SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE I PUSH HIM AWAY OR HE FEELS LIKE I'M PUSHING HIM AWAY... I'M NOT! I FEEL ANGRY ALL THE TIME AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO! I KNOW I'M DEPRESSED, I'VE BEEN THAT WAY SINCE I WAS 5 YEARS OLD! BUT I'M TIRED OF TAKING DRUGS TO MAKE HE "HAPPY" THEY DON'T F%#&IN WORK! I FEEL LIKE LOGAN IS ALWAYS DOING SOMETHING WRONG WHEN HE IS'NT, HE IS JUST BEING A NORMAL 3 1/2 YEAR OLD CHILD. I ALWAYS WANT CHRIS TO BE CLOSE TO ME, SOMETIMES EVEN WHEN HE IS RIGHT NEXT TO ME I FEEL LIKE HE IS'NT CLOSE ENOUGH, I CAN'T GET ENOUGH OF HIM OR THE LOVE HE GIVES! SOMETIMES HE SAYS THAT HE WILL "LEAVE ME ALONE" WHEN I'M IN A BAD MOOD BUT REALLY ALL I WANT IS FOR HIM TO HOLD ME AND NEVER LET GO! I HAVE TOLD HIM THAT A MILLION TIMES, BUT LIKE A TYPICAL MALE HE ONLY HEARS BITS AND PEICES OF THINGS!!! I JUST DON'T WANT HIM TO GET TIRED OF MY B.S. AND LEAVE. HE HAS ALREADY HAD TO DEAL WITH THIS S&*T FROM HIS MOM CAUSE SHE IS THE SAME WAY. WHAT DO I DO? I JUST DON'T WANT HIM TO GET TIRED OF IT ALL AND GO.... EVEN THOUGH I DON'T THINK HE WOULD DO THAT CAUSE HE LOVES ME TOO MUCH... WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME? I'M SAYING THAT I DON'T WANT HIM TO LEAVE EVEN THOUGH I KNOW HE WON'T.... I'M RETARDED!I NEED SOME MAJOR HELP!