I'M SO CONFUSED
WOW.....i haven't written in a long ass time...well a lot of stuff has happened since the last time i wrote...it's been a kinda confusing time for me....i started to a have feelings for someone else...well i don't even know if there are feelings there....i think it's just an attraction right now....but i don't know...*he* went to the game last night and i didn't feel anything......we lost by the way....and i was so pissed of at the beginning of the game......uhhh i hated cheerleading at that very moment......i was so pissed off that i felt like crying.....i hate it when you enjoy something so much but then there are some people that make you fucking hate what you are doing......that's what happen last night and then i saw *him* in the stands and tried to be all giggly like i usual am with *him*...but i wasn't.....i even turned to becky and told her that he was there....but after that i was just like...ummm ok...i don't know....this other guy doesn't know that i'm attracted to him....and he's pretty hot....but he's a very big flirt with other girls....so i don't think he could be in a serious relationship.....well i'm done