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It is so hard to be a black jewish gay. Not that I know any, iI just think it would suck. hard.
Well I live in springfield now for all of you non-believers that don't follow my ever move. damn you, all to hell. Well it is fun, and exciting and all that jazz... not really, I hate every moment I am alive, every part of me and every inch of space I take up. It sucks, not because I live down there. mostly because I hate life and everything about it. What is the point to life? to get a job and work your whole life? I mean college kids pay an ass load of money just to learn to get a job, so they can work the rest of their lives? I don't get it. But until I win the lotto or fuck some supermodel that gives me money for sex on a regular basis, I will continue on. that's life, it throws shit at you and you must learn to throw it back. I think I will start doing drugs? not that i want to just that I am so bored with my life and how I live it that doing drugs it could still be bad I just wouldn't remember. I have good friends down there, I think at times that most of them don't like me or get sick of me after a couple days. but its cool, I get sick of myself after a while too.
I think i'm kind of a dick, I can just be mean to people and really not know why? It's like sub concensely I want people to hate me. I told heather when we started going out that I was a dick and I would do things to push us apart. that I didn't know why I did, i just do. Well at least I told her the truth? ohh well I try to work on it but i'm not very good at it.
So I like this girl, but I don't know why? I never liked her before until a couple weeks ago, and It kind of hit me. I was like wow! I really like her. and then i was like why? I still don't know and I could never make it work. She would never see me that way. We could never date unless she started it, like came up to me ad made it real ovious, and i would have to be sober. If we kissed at a party I wouldn't be like no no it's the beer. or at least that is what I would tell myself. hmm is it possiable to be loud and crazy and funny just to cover up how shy you really are? that doesn't make sense but I think it can happen.
So the moral of this is, If someone is a good friend to you and treats you well, tell them, make sure they know they are loved. and two if you like someone and want to date them, tell me err I mean tell them, live is too short to play games like that. on a side note if you like someone you can tell me and I will make sure they know is some suttle way. Yea so bye.
P.S. I feel cocky, that is my mood. If you don't get it call me and I will explain.
Well I live in springfield now for all of you non-believers that don't follow my ever move. damn you, all to hell. Well it is fun, and exciting and all that jazz... not really, I hate every moment I am alive, every part of me and every inch of space I take up. It sucks, not because I live down there. mostly because I hate life and everything about it. What is the point to life? to get a job and work your whole life? I mean college kids pay an ass load of money just to learn to get a job, so they can work the rest of their lives? I don't get it. But until I win the lotto or fuck some supermodel that gives me money for sex on a regular basis, I will continue on. that's life, it throws shit at you and you must learn to throw it back. I think I will start doing drugs? not that i want to just that I am so bored with my life and how I live it that doing drugs it could still be bad I just wouldn't remember. I have good friends down there, I think at times that most of them don't like me or get sick of me after a couple days. but its cool, I get sick of myself after a while too.
I think i'm kind of a dick, I can just be mean to people and really not know why? It's like sub concensely I want people to hate me. I told heather when we started going out that I was a dick and I would do things to push us apart. that I didn't know why I did, i just do. Well at least I told her the truth? ohh well I try to work on it but i'm not very good at it.
So I like this girl, but I don't know why? I never liked her before until a couple weeks ago, and It kind of hit me. I was like wow! I really like her. and then i was like why? I still don't know and I could never make it work. She would never see me that way. We could never date unless she started it, like came up to me ad made it real ovious, and i would have to be sober. If we kissed at a party I wouldn't be like no no it's the beer. or at least that is what I would tell myself. hmm is it possiable to be loud and crazy and funny just to cover up how shy you really are? that doesn't make sense but I think it can happen.
So the moral of this is, If someone is a good friend to you and treats you well, tell them, make sure they know they are loved. and two if you like someone and want to date them, tell me err I mean tell them, live is too short to play games like that. on a side note if you like someone you can tell me and I will make sure they know is some suttle way. Yea so bye.
P.S. I feel cocky, that is my mood. If you don't get it call me and I will explain.