So this is what it feels like when batteries run out...

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I'm so drained, so dead, so just blah. I know what I want and everything I want seems like I can never get. Like I work so hard to get where I am just to realize I'm not good enough?? I thinks this is all because of my dad.(I know I sound like I should be on Oprah) I told him the other day that I wanted to move out, this great talk ensued about how stupid, dumb, retarded, and just a bad kid I am. How I am lower than his lowest expectations for me, like this is supposed to make me want to stay. HA! So I left after this great talk and came home a little later and my dad was fine, like he asked if I could get into school down there and what would happen, weird. So that was the end of it like it never happened, we have said a word about it since. but I know he knows, cause everything around here he wants me involved. He tries to make future plans for us to do? He is old I don't understand him...

I don't think I like girls, I'm going to leave it at that. I just don't understand chicks.

If you want my christmas list I have made it, I expect you to buy me many gifts. I know that if you read this than I bring joy to your life, thus you must buy me gifts! (In case you missed it there is an "S" on the end of gift, which means more than one)