I feel bad now.
I feel really bad. I know in my last entry I told you all that I found myself a gf. Well Becky didn't like that at all. She had her heart set on being with me and stuff. I had no idea that she felt like this. I mean she would say stuff, but I never knew that she was really fucking serious. I thought she was joking around a little bit. But I guess I was wrong. I feel really bad about this. I did have feelings for her, but it was like she was a dream. Someone I knew, but couldn't touch. I never talked to her on the phone or met her. I am sure I seem like a dick to her or something, but I honestly had no idea that she meant everything that she was saying to me. I mean I think she is a great person and any guy would be VERY lucky to have her, but I didn't really see anything happening between us. I know in a previous entry I said that I wanted to make her my gf, but after I wrote that, I got to thinking. I realized that I didn't really know her at all. I know I should have told her all of this, but I have been busy and I didn't want to hurt her feelings. Becky, if you are reading this, I am soooo sorry. I never meant for any of this to happen. You know I would never mean to hurt you babe. I do care for you and I care when you are hurting. I am sorry. I hope that you can forgive me. You know where to find me if you need me.
Joshie
Joshie