i'm sorry
well... i hate saying goodbye to people that i thought had a lot to do with my life... telling your best friend that you don't want a boyfriend you want a friend... is already hard enough...
i had to say goodbye to yall today because of the fact that you don't realzie how unhappy you really are... which makes everyone around you unhappy. i have been apart your life for almost a year and a half now and im still fighting a battle that i can't win... no matter what happens someone gets hurt or upset that i'm around... or when the skank comes into the picture im the only who gets hurt...
you guys were my family for so long you all played your parts and roles... like eric was the dad.... and shaun you were the big brother... grover was the annoying cousin who never went away... and then there was matt... he was the hard one to pin point so im going to say he was the family shrink... he meant more to me than any of yall will ever know... and that's one of the reasons why i have to get away from you... it's hard enough seeing him every once and a while... but hearing about his every move 24/7 breaks my heart...
i've alwasy said that i've worked so hard to get to a point where i was ok... with just being by myself... and that's always when he came back around... his eyes say everything... he doesn't ever want me around... so i guess im letting him win... he can my old best friend... and my present best friend... if that's what he wants then fine... i'm tired of being stubborn... i cna't do it anymore... im not happy... i'm not who i used to be... and shaun you said it yourself you hate the person i'm becoming... well so am i... you are the person i'm becoming... we need to fix ourselves without eachother...
i had to say goodbye to yall today because of the fact that you don't realzie how unhappy you really are... which makes everyone around you unhappy. i have been apart your life for almost a year and a half now and im still fighting a battle that i can't win... no matter what happens someone gets hurt or upset that i'm around... or when the skank comes into the picture im the only who gets hurt...
you guys were my family for so long you all played your parts and roles... like eric was the dad.... and shaun you were the big brother... grover was the annoying cousin who never went away... and then there was matt... he was the hard one to pin point so im going to say he was the family shrink... he meant more to me than any of yall will ever know... and that's one of the reasons why i have to get away from you... it's hard enough seeing him every once and a while... but hearing about his every move 24/7 breaks my heart...
i've alwasy said that i've worked so hard to get to a point where i was ok... with just being by myself... and that's always when he came back around... his eyes say everything... he doesn't ever want me around... so i guess im letting him win... he can my old best friend... and my present best friend... if that's what he wants then fine... i'm tired of being stubborn... i cna't do it anymore... im not happy... i'm not who i used to be... and shaun you said it yourself you hate the person i'm becoming... well so am i... you are the person i'm becoming... we need to fix ourselves without eachother...